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Pregnancy had been kind of rough. I didn't expect for my right leg to start going numb at only 18 weeks, didn't think I would be in so much pain in my back and thought I'd be this healthy mama who ate only the best foods and exercised. All I want to do is put my feet up and succumb to these cravings!

Getting pregnant was much easier than I expected, but the rest has been a lot harder! I had planned for a med free water hypno birth, but had to be induced and attached to a machine. The intensity of the chemically induced contractions knocked me for six and I ended up having pethidine despite having been so determined not to.

I thought my baby would sleep well and be happy and calm - it didn't even enter my mind that he might be fussy! I was very wrong and only after 3 months of colic did he start to mellow out.

I am also a cloth nappy dropout - I had dreams of being all natural and only using lovely soft fluffy nappies on my boy. I shelled out on all the gear but after a few months I had to admit defeat as I would have done anything for a little bit more spare time and less on the to do list!

All the planning in the world couldn't have prepared me for motherhood, and I've had to let go of a lot of my previously held ideals and plans - but I try to remember that as long as he's happy and healthy then I'm not doing too bad!