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@ameliabedilia: I'm sorry you're feeling so upset I know it seems like you have to have a set plan, but a big part of life is just beyond our control. We can pretend we're doing this or that to "make" it happen and maybe that helps. Who knows? But ultimately, there is peace in knowing that God's plan really is best for us. His timing is absolutely perfect. And we can trust Him. We might as well, anyway because it's not like our stressing changes anything! I just got done praying with DH about this cycle and I feel (and have been feeling) very much at peace with the whole ttc thing. I've decided already that whatever the outcome, I'm keeping this peace! I hope you have an AWESOME first day at work! Let us know how it goes!

@AmeliaBedilia: I am SO sorry about the frustration, and I understand the urge to have a plan in place. I think there is a point when it's really hard to hold on to those "whatever happens happens" and "everything happens for a reason" mantras that all of us on the long TTC journey strive to believe in. But at one point (or lots of points), we break down. You are not alone honey, and I definitely understand your need for a plan. I guess, when things get really tough, I try to remind myself that I WILL be a mom...whether it's through our own conception, IUI, IVF, or adoption...we will not stop until we have a child together. And I already love that child so much, because of everything we've gone through. You too, will be an amazing mom someday.

@LindsayInNY: Many hugs and much love!

And the ultimate TTC conundrum: I need new work clothes, especially dresses. Loft is having a huge sale. So I guess I buy things now and return them if I am KU? Because if I'm not, it'll be a few more months before this is an issue again.

Hey girls. I'm back from my MUCH needed vacation! I think spending some time apart after my breakdown might have actually been a good thing. I got to love on my nieces and nephews, and when I got home it was like things sort of "reset" for me and DH. We had a family event Friday when I got back and I could tell he was more attentive (even though he was technically working since we were at his job). Just the little things like a hand on my back when he stood next to me meant a lot. And thankfully, MIL didn't say a word about babies.

I'll be calling to schedule my annual and work a "WTF" appointment into that next month. Given how much I spotted this past month, I think it's at least worth it to look into my progesterone levels.

@septca: I've had the same conundrum about work clothes since I got KU last dec. I've actually bought more dresses and steered clear of pants because I figure they'd last longer if we get pregnant.

@organicmama:

@LindsayInNY: Hugs

@septca: We push the business/casual dress code, so most of my dresses are A-line or empire waisted.

It's hard to reply to everyone on my phone, but hugs all around.

So I went to the doctor today because of having depression/anxiety symptoms that have been returning over the past couple months. I'm hoping that the zoloft that I am gonna be taking helps with that and stress/worry about TTC.

Hey ladies...so tmw morning bright and early I go to the RE for my postcoital test. I finally got my positive OPK this am and DH surprised me with a BD'ing session super early this am...when he woke up for work/hours before I had to wake up for work. And of course when I used the OPK after our BD session and he was already at work I got the positive...

I was told by the RE that once I get the positive to call to make my appt for the next morning for the post coital test....but my doctor was going on vacation for 2 weeks starting Tuesday (tmw). So OF course I get my positive today and I called and I thought they would tell me that we will do it next month...they put me on hold for 2-4 mins and they told me to come first thing tmw morning and I will see a different doctor. OK...

Now DH and I just went back to work today after a week off and going away, all nice and relaxed to BD'ing in the early hours of the morning to now we have to do it again tonight so I can get this test over with tmw! I hope DH can do this! He said at dinner he was feeling a lot of pressure and wanted to take a nap after his super long day back at work (first day back to work after a vacation always sucks!) so now he's taking a nap (yes it's almost 10pm. I'm thinking of taking a shower, going to light some candles and make it as romantic as possible...that is, if he isn't til drowsy!

Also stressing a bit bc I am seeing a male RE tmw for the post coital and YES I have to get the eff over it but I've always only seen female obgyns my entire life so I'm a bit nervous and according to his pic online he may be good looking. Fml lol. Woosaaaaa trying not to stress...gotta sweat the small things. Let's hope we have no failure to launch issues tonight. Trying to stay relaxed...okay sorry rant is over!

FYI - Girls I think MrsMcD de-actived her account.

@AmeliaBedilia: Thanks girl. Isn't that the truth?! We do do crazy things when ttc! Well tmi but we had success! First time we BD'ed in one day near O. Maybe that'll help? Or it'll hurt and nothing will happen lol. *positive thoughts*. And thanks, yes 30 or more vajayjays a day!!!

@nicole112: nice job on the BD timing!! That's always a good feeling when you time it right. We should be POAS/TWW twins this cycle because I O'd either yesterday or Sunday

@marfi: I take zoloft for my pmdd. It is a life saver in that respect. Hope you start feeling better soon!

@raindrop: that makes me so sad! She was on her first clomid cycle this past month. I hope everything is ok

@organicmama: Thanks! I was def stressing because we BD'ed twice in one day!! And yay for POAS/TWW twins!!

I think I O'ed yesterday? My darkest OPK was yesterday morning but my temp has not risen yet…or maybe I'll O today? My temp dropped this AM…I was cold this morning. Idk…weird…I pray it's not an anovulatory cycle...

We BD'ed yesterday early morning and late last night. I went for the postcoital test this morning and I think I was more nervous that I was about to see a male MD who I never met before and because it was a male MD all in my vajayjay. I KNOWWW I have to get over it. And he walked in and totally reminded me of Dr. Master's from Masters of Sex (if you watch the show you will understand haha). He had no personality and was all "business". Maybe that's better. I was thankful for the super nice (female) nurse!

Well, on a positive note, everything looks great! He said the sperm is moving well in the CM and all looks really good. He wants me to come back in one week for blood work to make sure I ovulated (now my mind will be at ease to confirm I O'ed this cycle!). I think this will help with my TWW…as the blood test day next week will be CD 27. Maybe O'ing later on is a good thing? Or AF will be late and make me wonder and drive me more crazy!

@septca: Thanks! It was a bit awkward but I tried to get over it. I try to be mature…sometimes it's hard though!! Oh, And I think I may POAS on August 31……! Thanks!

@septca: @nicole112: I didn't even know that was a test...but I squirmed a little too. Lol!

Question. I'm planning to schedule my WTF appointment during my annual next month. Would you guys suggest I go at any certain point in the month in case she wants to do a blood test? I'm wondering if any point would be better than another (or am I over thinking things)?

@MaryM: They will do separate lab requests for your blood work, so it doesn't really matter.

@MaryM: In that case, I may schedule it for 7 DPO. (No point in having an annual on CD3).

@MaryM: @Bigskygirl: I never really heard of it either until I went to the RE. On the first appt he told me he wanted me to do a post coital test. He told me since I was O'ing any day now (this was Friday) to keep doing the OPK's and the day I get the positive "bright red lines" call the office to come in the next morning and "have relations" that night. So yesterday morning I got my positive, called and they had me come in early this morning. It literally felt like a pap. And it took about the same amount of time as a pap. Once it was done they had me wait in the hallway as they looked at the culture of my CM (within 12 hours of BD'ing) under a microscope. They had a microscope slide prepped with the other stuff during the procedure. After literally maybe 5 minutes they called me in and told me they saw the sperm moving around in my CM very well and all looked good. I wish I could have taken a peek! But basically they wanted to see the sperm in your fertile CM on the day of O. Kinda neat I guess! It wasn't painful, just uncomfortable. And so awkward having like 2-3 people who worked there "did you have relations last night? What time did it happen?" Haha

But overall, I'm happy it was done. I did ask about my "low" progesterone on CD 21 and he said if you ovulate later (like I do...CD18-20) your progesterone prob won't rise enough as you just ovulated. I thought that was interesting and definitely made sense! So now they want me to do "CD21 bloodwork" in one week from today (one week after ovulation) which will be CD27 to check my levels to see if indeed I did ovulate.

@Sprite: Welcome back and good luck!!!