I had my 30 week appointment today. I've been being monitored for the last week for my cervix shortening. I already have been getting weekly shots of progesterone since my son was born early at 35 weeks.

Well, today's appointment started with a discussion of what kind of restrictions I needed to be on. My doctor wanted to discuss stopping working, but decided to check me first to see what was happening today. And I'm already 1 cm dilated! This quickly led to bed rest, a non-stress test to see if I was contracting, and my first steroid shot to help her lungs.

I'm such a mess right now. I worried about the baby and the possibility of her coming too soon. I can't stop thinking about how we're going to afford this. I'm sad about all the fun times I'm going to miss out on with my son in the next few weeks. I feel bad that I'm leaving work and all the teachers I work so abruptly.

Please just remind me that everything will work out and it'll be ok.