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@Jess1483: it's my birthday today too. Happy birthday to us.

I keep thinking I should be a mom by now. My EDD was 18 days ago. My day would have been totally different, and I really really wish it was. Another milestone, same empty uterus.

I sometimes think it should stop hurting by now, it's been over 8 months and I wasn't very far along. But it still does, and probably always will, at least a little bit.

@simplyfelicity: You always have the right words. I wish we could return the favor. I hope you have a better day today. If it helps, middle school is like my worst nightmare (seriously...I hated dealing with middle schoolers in all my school jobs). So I think you're doing awesome just by showing up

@travelgirl1: We are all cheering for you!

@Crystal: I'm sorry that you had to face the milestone this way. It sure hurts.

@simplyfelicity: I don't know what I would do if Ellie was gone for a month!!!!! I'm so glad she's back with you

@Jess1483: & @Crystal: Happy birthday! Please do something wonderful for yourselves...you both deserve it!

@simplyfelicity: I wasn't going to block the January mamas thread because I thought I could handle it but I couldn't. Blocking was the best thing I did, doesn't mean I'm not happy for them all, just means I can't handle yet another reminder.

Thanks everyone, I rarely ovulate on my own, I feel kind of proud of myself when I do

@simplyfelicity: I confess I occasionally check the Sept. thread when it pops up...and I was never even an active member of it!

I'm not sure how many of y'all are religious at all, but my MIL forwards me these daily emails from the Osteens. I used to hate them, but occasionally they just seem to be the right words.

Today's:

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

(Exodus 14:14, NIV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

All through life, the enemy tries to stop us with a yoke of bondage — a yoke of depression, a yoke of low self-esteem, a yoke of compromise. He’ll try to burden you down so that everything is a struggle. You may be working hard, but you can’t get ahead because you have all these yokes controlling you.

Maybe you’ve been living with a yoke your whole life. It’s been passed down to you. Maybe you don’t realize it. You can’t seem to get ahead. You’re struggling in your marriage. Your children won’t do what’s right. Low self-esteem, that’s all you’ve known. But God said to the Israelites, “I have seen the affliction of My people, and I am coming down to deliver them.” God sees every yoke, every unfair situation, everything that you struggle with. He doesn’t just sit back and say, “Well, too bad.” No, He says, “I’m coming down to do something about it.” You don’t have to worry. The yoke destroyer is on the way. God is saying, “I’m coming down to put an end to that struggle. I’m shifting things in your favor. I’m delivering you from addictions. I’m removing the burden and setting you free to walk into the fullness of your destiny.”

@2PeasinaPod: "I may not be able to see it as I'm going through all of this, but He's surprised me before."

THIS exactly.

I mean, we weren't trying when I got KU in December...why do I think I need to do so many things myself and do things so perfectly?

I'm pretty sure we only DTD once during a fertile time (and I'm not even sure it that close to O...but I wasn't tracking so I don't know). So why do I put pressure on us having perfect timing and multiple BD sessions now?? ugh. It's hard to let go!

@simplyfelicity: Yep. It's totally everywhere.

Just spotted on twitter http://www.patheos.com/blogs/kathrynlopez/2014/08/was-your-prayer-a-failure/.

I liked this quote she included:

"all our prayers — with every possible limitation, effort, poverty, dryness and imperfection they may have — are … purified and reach God’s heart… [W]e can be sure that there is no such thing as superfluous or useless prayers; no prayer is wasted. And prayers are answered, even if the answer is sometimes mysterious, for God is Love and infinite Mercy…. God is not indifferent to our entreaties"

@Crystal: @Jess1483 - Hope you had lovely birthday ladies. x Big hugs.

@simplyfelicity: I did that too. It's the worst, man. The ABSOLUTE worst. Today I would have been 12 weeks, on the nose. I'm so angry/sad this morning.

@simplyfelicity: I hear you. That would be one of the only things that could make the day that little bit less tragic.

@jaguar: For most of my life I didn't ovulate, I have been very lucky that acupuncture + herbs seems to work for now, touch wood.

@simplyfelicity: I really hope you are preg by March.

@jaguar: You had every reason to hope and be positive just as we all did. But I do think seeing my name next to the post would be a kick in the gut every time.
@2PeasinaPod: I'm still so sad that you are going through this yet again. I felt like I could handle 1 because so many women go through it...I just wasn't ready for the second to come. Your strength is amazing to me. @travelgirl1: good for O! Get busy, lady!

My Fertility Specialist rang me today - finally! She was sad about our loss, and mentioned that miscarriage rates are generally higher in PCOS women.... so just one more brilliant thing about that, if infertility wasn't enough. Anyway, if I don't get a period and this cycle seems never ending, she's given me the go ahead to take Provera to jump start it & get going with our final frozen embryo.

Nothing will happen here for a while, but I'm just happy to have a plan. I used a pregnancy test to see how dark it was today and it was a LOT lighter than Sunday's one, so I guess that means my levels are starting to drop. I'll ask for a blood test next week to see where they're at.

@jaguar: Are you on metformin at all? My doctor said the same about miscarriage rates for women with PCOS, but she made me hopeful because the rates equalize for those that are taking metformin (which didn't seem to help me, but I have been better about taking it more regularly since then!)