I swear every day I have another panic moment that something bad will happen to j. I live with this constant fear that something bad will happen to him. I get knots in my stomach. I don't let it affect my ability to have fun with him but I can't help but think of all the terrible things that could happen.

Ie: today I told DH we need to text the other person after dropping j off at daycare. I was almost in tears thinking about the innocent babies taken too soon bc of such a horrible mistake.

I worry about drowning, choking, falls, etc etc...

Tell me I'm not a freak do I need some kind of therapy? Seriously.