Ugh and I totally needed it.

We had a hard time with DS last night...it took almost 3 hours to get him to sleep. He was nearly inconsolable, and my patience was frayed. I have a bad tendency to want to be completely responsible for him when he gets like that (because I have the boobs?) I finally broke and handed him over to DH and then sat on the couch and cried. I felt like such a failure of a mother.

DH told me go lie down in our bedroom for a while. I was completely ready to argue, and then he said "please Honeybee" so I did. Laid in the bed and played poker on my phone for about half an hour until I was calm and my patience was replenished.

When we were going to bed later on, he told me that he feels like taking care of LO is mostly my job*, and that his job is to take care of me.

*DS is EBF on demand, and that's a big part of this statement. It makes no real difference when he's not hungry, but when he's upset he often wants to nurse for comfort. DH always takes him as soon as he gets home from work (because he misses him), and does the bulk of diaper changes at night. *I*, however, for good or bad tend to want to/try to take on 100% of the parenting when he's upset. So though DH said that, it's not completely true, and what part of it is true is my doing.