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This is how the whole last MONTH of my maternity leave was!!! I would CRY at the thought of leaving my poor baby at daycare and I refused to put him down for naps - I just held him so I could get as much snuggles in as possible!!!

The first day we dropped him off at daycare, I stayed with him an hour before I had to go, and I sobbed in the car. It was soooooooooooo hard. I was so happy when I finally picked him up later that day!

BUT every day gets easier for me! It helps that I enjoy my job, so I'm not away from my baby AND completely miserable at work. I like what I do, so I think that makes it easier. Plus when I pick up Xander in the evening, he seems soooooooo happy, so I know he's being well cared for, and that definitely makes it easier to leave him each day!

It'll be hard, but it DOES get easier!!!

HUGS!!! The idea of going back to work is usually worse than actually going back. It is sooo hard to go back to work when they're this young, and I SO WISH our maternity leaves allowed us at least 6 months home with our babies because I think by 6 months the majority of us tend to be more ready than when they're only 3 months.

However, it does feel good to have some quiet moments to yourself in the day. Just waking up, showering, and getting ready when I have to go to work makes me feel accomplished and refreshed. Having distinct weekdays and weekends are nice too and allows me to be a more present mom when I'm with my kids! When you go pick him up at the end of the day, he will light up for you, and those snuggles will feel extra extra good. It is hard, but it does get easier!

Big hugs! It's so tough. I'm in my third week back and it does get a littleeasier. The first day was far and away the worst.

I'll also echo what @MrsMccarthy: said and say the LO is so excited to see her dad every day after work and he was only home on leave with us for two weeks, so despite my fears that she would forget who I was (sigh...) she is always happy to see me. Well, usually she barely looks at me and wants to nurse and then is happy to see me!

I take satisfaction from looking at her photos during the day, providing milk for her even though pumping is a huge PIA, and in providing for our family.

Regarding your childcare, I would be a little put off by that vibe as well. My LO is at an in home day care and the owner has been in business for 30+ years, but so far she does listen to my concerns and work with us on LOs sleep, and is doing what we want with feeding. If your provider won't listen to your wishes that would concern me.

SO MANY HUGS. My first week flew by! I honestly had a harder time this week, now that the reality of our new schedule has sunk in. But...it's what is best for my family, so I keep tons of pictures of her around and love on her like crazy when she's home. Don't worry, it will be ok!!

@Adira: I'm so glad you posted that. I'm honestly heart broken when I pick her up every day and she barely notices. ::wails:: Dramatic, I know, but I'm glad it wasn't just me....

No experience, but I wanted to send hugs!!! I am glad to hear that your meeting went well. You're a super-mama!! I'm sure you'll do wonderful, and picking LO up will be a wonderful part of your days!