I have until may 30 so about 6.5 more weeks and my son will be just 5 mo. I am actually lucky I know to have taken 6 mo (compared to a lot of people) but it doesn't feel like near enough! If I was gonna stay home I know that comes with it's own challenges, don't get me wrong. But honestly many of the things that are stressing me out right now like his sleep and lack of schedule only worry me because I think of others caring for him and what they will do. I would just embrace his love of napping in my arms and nursing to sleep until I felt for the benefit of both of us it needed to change.

But instead, especially since my schedule is 3pm-1130pm, and he hasn't been great with bottles, it's so hard to picture how anyone will handle putting him to sleep for his naps or bedtime. I know he'll be safe and fed and that's all that matters. It doesn't help that we haven't even decided for certain who it's gonna be! Options are:
-my husband stops working 1-930 and either does day shift instead or takes some time off. He has a lot of projects and work he can do on the side, he doesn't like his job anyways, his job doesn't pay well at all and I make enough for our expenses. Problem with this is I don't think he wants to be a SAHD. I don't know if it's the idea that bothers him or if he isn't sure he would be good at it. Or if he just doesn't want to
-I drive baby 30 min to my MIL's house. This would be decent, except I have a feeling this would ruin our relationship which isn't the best as is. We butt heads over everything so honestly it would never work. Plus as baby gets older it seems like such a pain for my SO to go drive after work to get the baby so late.
-so our last option, which I don't mind at all, is my mom will drive up and watch him. She is obsessed with her first grandson, she loves the idea of bonding and caring for him especially as she retires. But it's a full 45 min drive, so pretty inconvenient for her. And they will probably be moving 2 hours away by fall. So then it's not even an option any more. Basically I hope she can do it twice a week to carry us through summer, and then we will see what's next. I will be working every weekend and we will only need 2 weekdays covered. Hopefully by summer's end my husband will decide he wants to start a new schedule!

And no matter what, I'll get used to it and my son will flourish. Right?