For five years I worked for a division of a very large software company. Our division's numbers were bad this quarter and yesterday day they laid off 20 people, including me.

I feel so sad and lost. It's the place where all my friends work. It's the place where I met my husband and where he continues to work. I had a lot of flexibility and a great salary and we lived a very comfortable life.

As part of my severance I will continue to get my salary for the next 4 months. I also have a special mortgage where I don't have to pay for 6 months in the event of a layoff. All that combined with savings and we're probably fine for a year or more of living at our current lifestyle. But I still feel scared and sad and like I let our little family down.

On top of that, for those that don't know, we're currently going through fertility treatments and now I'm not sure what to do. Ideally i'd like to fine a job ASAP but I feel like it doesn't look great if you announce a pregnancy soon after starting a job. And I don't know if I'd even qualify for a company short term disability plan (which would've funded my maternity leave at my old job.)

I just feel really sad and lost right now. Thanks for listening.