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@marionberry @cherrybee it's funny bc i have an original hellobee account. I asked for an invite as soon as this site opened up, but it was using my real name, so when i decided to stop lurking and actually post, i decided to make a new account since you couldn't change your username at the time. It's silly bc I've posted my wedding pics in this thread but still, I felt weird about using my name so I totally get it.

@mrssquirreld: no sneaky early poas for me. You can test for opk more than once a day. It's probably a good idea.

@mrssquirreld: I test twice a day. Some peoples get gradually darker, some just get a positive with no fade in! Amazing news about your job, I think its the right decision. X

TWW is ok. 9DPO today. I'm having cramps this cycle - I didn't have any symptoms last time and I was pg so I hope it doesn't mean anything! Might do an early POAS tomorrow as I got my faint positive 10DPO last time. Or I might not.... Eek! Starting to hope for a BFP which is dangerous, I didnt want to feel too sad if I didnt get pg straight away....

@mrssquirreld: Ya I forgot to mention that last night, so totally happy about your decision and glad you're happy about it too. I think it's the right one. I only ever peed once a day just because I didn't have time and it made OPK reading hard. That's why I like the CBEFM, because I just pee on it when I get up and I'm good for the day!

@mrssquirreld: I think i'm getting close to O day - not sure but since observing EWCM we've been trying to BD every day, it's only day 3 for me but DH is finally showing more of an effort this cycle so at least that is an improvement. Also, when I get close to O day or I think that I'm about to O, I test twice, once around early afternoon, and once at night. My OPKs are weird, they are darker earlier in the cycle, then they disappear to almost nothing, then they get super dark as I get the LH surge, then fade to nothing after. Who knows. I keep track of them by taking a pic of it and keeping it in a document online, so I can compare the lines. Also, I know that decision wasn't easy for you but I'm so happy that you feel comfortable with it! That must feel like such a huge relief!

@Marionberry @cherrybee @strawberrybee I can't wait for your TWW to be over, and hopefully with good news! Keep us updated!

@marionberry: Haha love the new username!! DC resident?!

@jojogirl: Well I did live in DC for a time, but returned back to my home in Oregon, where the marionberry was created.
@chibee: Haha you are looking at it while I have FAM turned on this morning. Technically the monitor hasn't given me crosshairs because my monitor and my temps don't coincide. I think that it's because I didn't get a good test on cd 12 (the day I always P)...as in it looked really weird, maybe not enough urine...and so I got the P the following day. If I shift the P's, I'd probably get crosshairs. I'll probably switch it back to advanced before work this morning, because not having crosshairs prevents me from stressing about how many dpo I am. I still recommend the CBEFM because it takes a lot of stress away, but I would wait another cycle or two before you pay for it, since you're likely to get knocked up without it. I'm on cycle 7 on the other hand lol.

@mrssquirreld: I sure hope you're right!

So, 10DPO and my temp dropped to a pre-O temp this morning. I also have a real AFy feeling, like she's coming today. The ***** isn't due until Tuesday!!! I tested anyway - just to check - and BFN, of course. I knew that this wasn't my cycle but I'm still pretty miffed, its like "I can't believe this has actually happened to me". I knew when I O'd, we BD'd at the right time, how HOW can I not be pg??? (forgive me, ladies, for being a drama queen but this is the first time it's happened to me - it'll be my first real AF since BCP, too).

There goes my Christmas announcements. There goes having a perfectly sized baby bump at my BIL's wedding. There goes being pregnant myself when my BFF has her baby in a couple of weeks. Any hope that my child and hers will be close enough in age to be friends to slipping away.....

(I'm wallowing in my own drama-queen induced misery!)

Sigh, onto cycle #3. Long, 5-week, cycle #3.

@MrsSquirrelD: I just keep thinking that on every cycle a couple has a 20% chance of conceiving. That means that, during any 5 month period, you are likely to conceive one of those months (using some really dodgy probability workings-out!!). What if I had my chance - on the first month - and now I've got to wait up to 9 months to get my BFP again????? I know it's really crazy thinking.... and it doesn't work like that at all..... ugh. Drama!!!!

@MrsSquirrelD: Oh no!!!! Now that is something to freak out about!!! although remember, it's the BDing BEFORE O that results in a baby, so keep BDing and, hopefully, there will be enough swimmers in there waiting when the egg pops out! Sperm can live for up to 5 days in suitable CM, remember!

Yeah, I know. I'm just being over dramatic! Onto cycle # 3 - now this one IS my cycle! 3 is the magic number!

@cherrybee: I'm so so sorry as I know that exact feeling. In fact I never got pregnant in my one in five chances at all. Your body was just probably not all normalized yet, and will probably be right as rain next time. I know that doesn't take the pain away, but I just know you'll have luck very soon, and it will be much sooner than 7 months.

@mrssquirreld: I agree with cherrybee. As long as you're bd'ing up to when he leaves you still have a good probability of getting pregnant! I love IKEA, we have one about an hour from here. How fun! And I love that you get a fun hotel night. OMG I should post a pic on here of all the stuff I've bought so far for the future baby berry, lol. There's so much stuff. I would not judge you at all for picking up a glider. In fact I find it very responsible. By spreading out expenses you make it more affordable to have a baby. Good for you!

@mrssquirreld: You mean like a kind of rocking chair right??

@Marionberry: Thank you. i know I'm just working myself up and you're right my body has been all out of sorts this month!! It'll be nice to start a cycle with a sensible temp this time!!

Oh and buying a glider is not responsible! She could break her neck hangliding - and then you'd feel guilty for encouraging her! Hahahahah!! Oh dear!

@Marionberry: It would be amazing!

Here's a pic of everything we have so far. We've picked up some furniture pieces for the baby room that we'll repaint (we haven't done any of that yet) and we've picked up a lot of clothes (most are gender neutral but there are a few specific to a boy or a girl). We also have a number of bedding items (yellow and grey). And sorry, I didn't edit the photo, so it's not the best.

Ok everyone, I'm getting really frustrated/annoyed with my cycle. I started observing a LOT of EWCM on CD12 and CD13, and now it's disappeared. It was EWCM for sure. I'm thinking right now, DH and I had a huge fight that went SO late into the night on the night of CD12 when I first observed it, do you think the stress of it is delaying ovulation? Ugh.

Sigh. I've been such a misery tonight. I was super grumpy for the first half of the evening - really difficult and stroppy - and then, after dinner, I just broke down and sobbed for about half an hour. Poor DH, I don't know how he puts up with me! I really do need to get a grip!