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Can I join? I don't feel like I really belong on any of the TTC boards right now, my situation is a bit of a mis fit.

I have PCOS but have managed to ovulate on my own (after many months of no periods) with acupuncture and herbs and with cycle monitoring at a fertility clinic. I got pregnant twice. #1 resulted in my lovely 19-month-old daughter and I lost the second pregnancy at 8 weeks, almost three weeks ago.

I had a meeting with my fertility doctor this morning to make a new plan and we're giving it till mid July to see if my period shows up and if it doesn't we'll do a random day 3 ultrasound and blood work to see if there's any action, if not we'll start ovulation drugs because I just haven't got it in me to wait it out again. A few months of that and we'll get more aggressive.

I'm sorry if it seems I shouldn't be here because I have had pregnancies, I just feel like the POAS threads don't apply to me. And I need some support because miscarriages don't seem to get much easier as the days go by. The baby I lost just seems further away from me and I miss it

@PurplePumps:

@FliegepilzHut: Thank you!

@travelgirl1: Welcome! We have a supportive group here. There is a thread for people TTC #2 after having trouble with LO #1. Let me find the thread. Not saying you have to post there. Just giving you different threads. http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/primary-ifers-ttc-2

@FaithFertility: @bluestriped bee: @mrswin: Thanks so much

@Jenn23: Oh man! That totally stinks that you didn't get into the study. Fingers crossed this cycle works for you and that you win the lottery in the meantime to pay for it!

@travelgirl1: welcome! If you would like to, some of us have added our information to this thread: http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/if-diagnosis-amp-treatment-history/page/2#post-1720192
I do hope you get your rainbow baby soon!

@FliegepilzHut: woohoo! that's sooner than expected!

@bhbee: Nice to see you popping in! I hope Texas and the new life are going well!

I'm getting over this cold but more than ready to start relaxing on the beach. I was proud of myself for only staying an hour more at work today. Work will just have to manage without me. DH is still at work as he wraps up things before we leave tomorrow morning.

@Sunshine1810: I know it must be really hard.. But listen to this- a girl at work tried ivf 3x before having her daughter 3 years ago. She is currently pregnant with her SECOND baby without ANY intervention. Total surprise. She is 35 with a slew of health issues. Helps remind me to think positive- it will happen

@Sunshine1810: oh gosh! I'm so sorry! That's so hard. you seem to be taking it much better than I.would. I hope you're able to take some time to rest and rejuvenate in this time and that your RE has a good plan for you when you meet next month. I have a friend with a very similar story as Mrs. Bunchy, so hang in there. Hugs!

@Sunshine1810: I'm so sorry...it is really hard when IVF doesn't work; I've been there. Please give yourself time to feel all the emotions that come to you. And you still have options even if you might not know about them yet! After our failed IVF we got pregnant, once as a total surprise and twice with non-IVF treatments and finally have our sticky baby.

@Mrs. Pinata: Thanks! Funny you mention the lottery because for the last few months my husband buys the big mega jackpot lottery tickets and we of course get absolutely no numbers (well, one free ticket once) so perhaps we will get lucky with that. haha I promise if I win big, I will pay for a round of IVF for everyone here that needs it!! Nobody should have to pay over $15,000 for one round of IVF.

@Sunshine1810: So glad to see others sharing their stories about those who had success on the next round of IVF. As I said earlier, I think round #2 WILL be your lucky cycle!!! We're all here for you!

Funny story for all of you that I forgot to share after my baseline ultrasound Monday. The ultrasound tech couldn't figure out the fluid in my uterus (I've had this free fluid for years on and off) and it throws some techs for a loop because they don't understand how to read it well. Anyway, she said suddenly to my husband standing next to me, "Here, can you hold the wand while I go get someone else?" Next thing you know, she leaves the exam room and my husband is holding the ultrasound wand and both of us are laughing. She comes back with another "senior tech" and he is relieved of his duties. I could tell he was uneasy about the whole thing, but he joked about it which helped relieve my anxiety during the process, too. Just had to share. It was a very funny moment! I have had dozens of ultrasounds, but never one quite like that.

@mrswin: So your husband would have just fled the room with the tech? LOL

@jenn23: hahaha! My DH would've felt the most awkward man alive! I chuckle just picturing the scene