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My news is that my beta numbers tripled. I literally almost had a nervous breakdown from the anticipation over the past two days. The worst is that I had to sit on stage for my student's graduation today and couldn't check my phone for FOUR hours. When the nurse finally got a hold of me, she was like "where on earth have you been?" Omg, so stressful. Anyway, I can't believe this has happened to me. Deep down I very much doubted it was possible. And now here I am. My first ultrasound and third beta is next Thursday...
I really can't express how much having you all has meant to me. The past year since my diagnosis has been the darkest in my life and having this community was incredibly helpful. It is strange being on the other side now because infertility has become so much of my identity, and I have met some wonderful people through it. I hope you don't mind if I continue to chime in and check up on y'all. I also am a little hesitant to join any pregnancy boards just yet because I know we certainly aren't out of the woods. I can't wait to see each and every one of you get what you so very much deserve--to be wonderful mothers. I truly don't think anyone can come out of this horrible process without also developing a deep sense of awe and love towards their children. And I'd like to think we will all be better mothers and fathers, and just generally better people, for it.

@TheReelDeal: @ineebee: Ladies, I am so sorry for your crappy news (I'd like to use a stronger word than that, but I don't want to offend anyone!). Recently, I've been very reluctant to look at the regular TTC POAS threads because every BFP makes me frustrated! I was so hoping to be excited about your positives today. I'm sure not nearly as much as you were. Hopefully, this is just another bump in the (long, windy, unpaved, narrow and did I mention long?) road. Please drink ALL the booze (or eat ALL of the cookies.. whichever feels better).

@raintreebee: I'm mostly just a lurker here, but your post was really lovely. Thank you for sharing. And Congratulations!

@raintreebee: Congratulations!!!! I am so excited for you and so happy that this cycle worked out!!! Now hopefully some of your good luck rubs off on some of us still here.

I have been lurking for a while, and I joined your fabulous virtual party, so I thought I should at least say hi. So hi, everyone

I am hanging around because I'm in a very in-between place right now. We started NTNP/TTC in March, three months ago. I got a BFP in April followed by an early miscarriage at 4w. Amazingly, I got pregnant again in April while more NTNP than TTC, but we lost that little one at 6w in late May. Needless to say, this is not exactly how I figured the last 12 weeks would have played.out.

I've got mild PCOS (no cysts, but bloodwork came back with it indicated) and probably low progesterone. I've got an HSG and more P tests coming next cycle to see what else is going on. Until then,.we wait.

I hope.it is OK that I came to say hi. I'm trying to stay positive , because we don't know what is going on. But I am feeling a little lonely and like I don't quite fit anywhere right now. So thanks for letting me come hang out

@raintreebee: so many congratulations to you. Wishing you a beautiful pregnancy.

@math.nerd: Thanks for your kind words!

@LovelyPlum: hi of course you're more than welcome here. I hope you get some answers and solutions soon!

@just_ju: Triple layer lining is a good thing! I think that's what they want to see before O.

For those of you who get 7dpo u/s, how big are your follies compared to when you triggered/O'ed? My follicle was 21.3mm the day before O, 14 a day or two after, but now 22 at 7dpo, and I'm wondering whether they're supposed to get bigger again like that. My cyst on the other side is still at 27 and I'm a little worried about how either one is going to shrink enough in just a week.

@just_ju: That must have been so disappointing! Does your dr have a plan to help with your low E2? Hope you had a better rise over the weekend!

@Shutterbug: Thanks

@LovelyPlum: hi! i'm glad you came out of "lurking" and i hope answers start coming your way soon.

@raintreebee: I had one once during IVF to look at my ovaries, but this time I think they were just checking my lining. It must have gone along with the 7dpo b/w to check progesterone. I have to admit that I read that article yesterday and started bawling afterwards because I was suddenly so upset. It's just getting so frustrating with my clinic and I feel like I'm back where I started but worse.

What cycle are you on/how long have you been TTC? TTC since December 2012
What are your plans for this cycle? Been on stim injections for a couple weeks now in preparation for IVF retrieval this Wednesday and transfer next week.
How is your attitude/outlook? Can’t wait to meet my baby/babies
What have you struggled with most this week? maintaining a slow and steady outlook
What is your diagnosis? Unexplained /slight motility issues
Where (very generally) do you live? Los Angeles area

@spaniellove: I do think a npon-insignificant portion of your frustration is coming from the troubles you are having with the RE. I think it maybe is time for a fresh start. Most of the women I've met who have been at it as long as we have have jumped around a lot before finding a place they really liked.

@spaniellove: I am sure there are a lot of women who switched from your new clinic to the old one and were happier too. I wouldn't feel guilty about not having a good experience there. It sounds like the office is very poorly run, and just because other people had success there doesn't mean you are doomed because you haven't yet. I met one woman who did 3 IVFs elsewhere before having success at my clinic and felt awful since I had failed cycles there. Looking back, that was irrational.

@raintreebee: that article was us! (Me and my hubs)....

@Apex: good luck today!

@Apex: hehe, just realized I said "today" I'm just willing Wednesday to get here faster!

Quick update, the egg retrieval went great, we were able to get 18 eggs. I'm at a slight risk for OHSS based on slightly increased progesterone levels, but I overdosing on water for the next few days, Pray for me ladies, I don't want this to go on for much longer.

@Apex: Congrats on a stellar retrieval! To ward off OHSS, I drank a lot of gatorade (I think the electrolytes are supposed to help) and ate a lot of protein. And make DH take good care of you!