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@lazypanda: Thanks got starting it!

My update is boring, still waiting for a smiley face on my ovulation sticks.......I hope I get one since I can't do cycle monitoring now my health insurance has ended and have no idea what my ovaries and hormones are doing

Hmmm, I think I would redo my timeline. As in TTC way earlier. I can't wish that too hard though because then maybe I wouldn't have A and I can't imagine her not being my baby.

I hope everyone is having a great week

@travelgirl1: I hope you get a soon. I hate that you're insurance got cancelled. What a crappy situation. And thank you. I'm getting excited.

@FliegepilzHut: I'm glad you aren't in any pain.

I posted my update in the what was your diagnosis thread. My results came in from the RE:

- DH's SA, SCA and bloodwork = fab
- My bloodwork, hormones, ovulating on my own = fab
- I have a partial uterine septum that I need surgery on

Now the waiting begins for a referral to a surgeon. I'm scared of being put under but that's the ONLY thing stopping me from getting KU. The RE suggested trying on our own after I heal. Like @travelgirl1: said - with a national health care system, referrals = waiting a long time. Boo. I'm praying I can get in before the end of the year, I have no idea how long it might take.

If I could change one thing on my journey it would be convincing DH to go get tested earlier, even though he's fine, but we could have been way further ahead.

@babycanuck: I'm so pleased you have an answer. That is great news! I know needing surgery isn't fun, but hopefully you'll be on your way to making a baby soon!

If I could do something over- probably start trying earlier, though we were doing distance due to DH's job, so that probably wouldn't have been wise. We started trying so that if I conceived immediately, the baby would have been due 2 months before he was able to move back.

Temp is down today at probably 11DPO. I didn't temp so I don't know for sure. I think AF is starting. I will probably be on cycle 18 shortly. I just had acupuncture last month that helped me fix a meridian that involves fertility, so I don't know f that needs more time to work.

I talked to my family doctor who is AWESOME. Since she knows how informed I am and that we don't have any IF coverage, she is willing to do just about anything I want except procedures she isn't trained in. She did labs and all were great, as was DH's SA. She said that I have no risk factors for a tubal blockage. She gave me these options:
1. Go back to progesterone. I have a 10-12 day LP, and did progesterone for 3 months without success, and I didn't like the side effects. If I knew that would work, I would gladly take the side effects.
2. Clomid or femara. We discussed both, but agree that femara would be a better choice for me due to the lower risk of multiples.
3. Femara plus progesterone.
4. Referral for HSG. I am reluctant to do this because if the results are abnormal, the only options as I understand are IVF or surgery. We won't do IVF and I am just starting a new job and REALLY don't want surgery.

My questions for you ladies:
1. What would you do? Should I give more time for acupuncture to work? I am leaning toward 1, 2, or 3 for the next 3 months, and then if no BFP, then bite the bullet and do an HSG.
2. If I'm not doing IUI, does femara require monitoring? Is there a limit of number of femara cycles? If I did 3 cycles now and then an HSG, would I be able to do femara or clomid after that? Are there any serious risks of femara? I saw the study on birth defects, but have seen so many things that say that was a bad study.

I hate the craziness I feel when AF comes.

If there's one thing I would re-do, it would to NOT prevent our first year of marriage.

So, if anyone has not seen the the saga of "is it or isn't it" HPT testing on this thread.... http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/trigger-shot-and-hpt-question#post-1819007

To summarize, I tested out the trigger at about 10dpts, and for the last few days there have been some tests with a line on it. This am, no lines, temp drop and bright pink spotting. Pretty sure AF is coming today. That puts me at a LP of 11 days. Not ideal. Once AF shows her face once and for all, I'll email the clinic for an appointment ASAP at the beginning of this week. Since we are leaving for vacation on 9/10, I'm not sure what they will want us to do, since if I get a BFP, I will not find out until we are away, and I will need to get my hands on some heparin, needles, etc.

DH and I had a huge "thing" last night. A big talk with lots of sobbing on my part. Basically I'm just so over life right now. I am not happy living here, and IF has just magnified my depression and unhappiness a million times over. It is very hard for me to accept that they don't know what has caused my issues, I feel like they have not done all they could do here, and I can't help but think that if we lived in the US, we'd have a baby by now. I feel like all of this is preventing me from enjoying anything in life. I don't care about anything, this is all-consuming, and I don't know how to fix it.

Sorry to be such a downer!

Anyway, assuming I'm not pregnant (which I'm 98.5% sure is the case) I'll be getting my tattoo on Thursday. I also want to dye my hair red before we leave on vacation. We are going to Boston and the Cape Cod area for a wedding, then to Mexico, then to Miami for 2 nights, then I'm headed "home" to Cuba one last time, before my parents move to Florida this November. To say I am ready for vacation would be a huge understatement.

@TheSwissWifeStyle: bug hugs!

AF started yesterday. We're now on cycle 18. I started getting migraines 2 days after acupuncture, which is why I stopped it last fall. I figured I would try again with a different acupuncturist. I know she has made some progress, but I'm trying to remember that even if everything is "fixed," it can still take a few cycles. That is one of the hard things! DH and I still need to talk about what we will do for this month. I keep thinking that NTNP would be helpful, but I can't seem to do it. I know when I usually O, and I get so disappointed regardless. I am considering telling myself that I can't get pregnant without some medication help, and that this month, we're truly taking a month off. This might be good since I am starting a new job and have some stressful stuff coming up in the next month.

@TheSwissWifeStyle: Your feelings are so real, raw and relatable! Big internet hugs to you. It is SO hard not to let infertility and the whole TTC thing take over life. How can it not, you know? You live in 2 week increments and cycle through such high and low emotions. It is HARD. I hope that your time away, and all of the traveling will help you feel rejuvenated. I know this is a crazy question, but is there any chance you can move back to the US? (not that it's the answer at all...just curious...don't answer if you don't want to)

First IUI was a fail. Just waiting for AF now and hoping it takes another day or two to arrive so next IUI doesn't conflict with Labor Day weekend. Feeling super pessimistic and "over it" lately... Lately meaning the last 24 hours but still. I need to get out of this funk...

If there was anything I'd redo... I think I would've gone for IF testing right at the year mark instead of a couple months after. It would've moved things up only two months or so but still. I think I was pretty proactive with all the genetic testing being the biggest hurdle we've faced.

I don't know what I would redo...I remember bringing up trying to conceive earlier than we started, and my husband wanted to wait. So maybe if I could have convinced him, I wish we had started sooner and then found out that we would need to go to the RE sooner. That seems to be a theme for a lot of us...getting in to the RE sooner. So for anyone who is just reading along with this thread - make the call. Get an appointment. Start the process sooner.

I have my saline sonogram tomorrow - hopefully that goes well and then I also hope I can knock this terrible cough that I have before I start the IUI process again next month.

@Leialou: Looks like you have a busy week ahead. I'm so glad you're able to jump right in to the process! Good luck with the next steps.

@lazypanda: Good luck with your consult today! And thanks for posting the list and starting the thread

@FliegepilzHut: I hope your recovery is going well and that you had a good, restful weekend.

@travelgirl1: I hope that you get your soon, and that everything works out for the best with your living situation and insurance. I know it must be stressful - but hopefully your little girl is a good distraction

@babycanuck: I hope you are able to get in for your surgery soon and that you and your husband can conceive on your own after that

@AmeliaBedilia: I'm surprised that an HSG is so far down your list. I only say that because it was a part of the regular IF testing before any treatment could begin for me. Even Clomid. The HSG is what revealed that I may have a fibroid or blockage in my uterus and without that knowledge, starting any treatment may have been a waste of time because it could have been what was preventing my success with pregnancy. // If I was starting a new job, I'd probably take a month off just to get settled in and not be worrying about the TTC roller coaster.

@TheSwissWifeStyle: I'll keep my ears open - is Finance what you do? Or is that your husband's line of work?

@LindsayInNY: I posted to your other thread too - but I just wanted to say, be in the funk. It's all part of this crazy process. But know that we're all here for you - in funky times and good times

@CupQuakeWalk: Misery totally loves company! I hope you had a great vacation and that even though regular sex never did the trick before - that maybe it did this cycle! I'm not in the misery of cycling just yet - so I'll be the little positive blue bird saying that MAYBE vacation was magical and you'll get your this cycle! )

If I had to redo anything, of course I'd just start trying earlier. Maybe not waited that 15 months after getting married to start. But we waited for a reason (DH wasn't quite ready, and we had amazing trips planned) so I can't exactly say I regret it either. I like to think that given the same information I had at the time, I'd make the same decisions because that was what was the best decision, so ultimately, we can't say could/should/would have.

IF updates, I'll be starting stims this weekend or early next week. Need to call the doc to get a schedule nailed down.

@lazypanda: No AF yet so that's helping... As long as AF holds off until at least tomorrow, we should clear Labor Day weekend and possibly save us the costs of one day of monitoring!

@CupQuakeWalk: I did ask at one of my monitoring appointments this past cycle about what happens when/if I naturally surge on my own. I didn't really get a direct answer though... Whenever I go in on CD3 this cycle, I want to ask again and see if something else can be added treatment-wise to approach things as aggressively as possible. I try to ask at the monitoring u/s how things look but don't get specific responses. Sometimes they'll mention follicle sizes but not how my lining or anything looks. I would rather more meds and whatnot at this point... Remind me again, will this be your first IUI and do you have a diagnosis?

@lazypanda: I'm surprised a doctor would tell you to gain weight by eating ice cream. That's not the healthiest way to go about it!