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@spaniellove: He says that sounds good! Feel better!

@spaniellove:I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. That had to be scary!! You're in my prayers. I'm glad you are feeling a little better.

@ladybee: Yayyy!!!! Congratulations again!!! Love seeing those tests!

@justdarling: I think that's smart - I'd wait until the weekend too. Stay strong! Saturday is only a day away

@marionberry: I think I would want to know. The post on HB the other day really made me think. I hadn't really given it much thought until then. I remember worrying when we did the genetic testing a while back. And I think I would worry no matter when I found out. But being able to process it during my pregnancy would be better for me, instead of finding out when he/she is born. When does that test take place?

@spaniellove: Hope you're doing ok! You're so brave and strong

@ladybee: SOOooooo happy for you Congrats!

Thanks for the warm welcome all. A lot has been going on here it is somewhat difficult for a newbie like myself to keep up.

@ladybee: Congrats of BFP! what a valentines day treat indeed:)

@spaniellove: I hope your feeling better. That sounded very scary.

@marionberry: I personally would want to know so as to be better prepared, but on the other hand after struggling for so long to get pregnant it would feel pretty devastating to hear something is wrong.

AFM no news to report here. Not really sure when I will hear about my blood work. I am supposed to have more blood work done one week after ovulation to check my progesterone levels. I am not sure if my doctor will wait until after that blood work to talk to me or what. I really need to ask more questions when I am at the doctor. Any thoughts on how long it takes to get blood work results back?

My main goal these days is to take better care of myself and to put my marriage and myself first during this difficult time. I really feel like for the past year I have been putting on this brave face and not really acknowledging how challenging infertility is.

I had another b/w + u/s today and I swear my tolerance to pain has disappeared. After these last few days I'm pretty sure that regardless of the money I don't want to do another fresh cycle or anything involving injectibles. I feel like I've been stuck with needles and catheters constantly since December and still have weeks to go.

Today's u/s was ever so slightly better than Wednesday's - there were 8 follicles this time. 2 were under 10mm and 1 was about to ovulate (which made me mad that they didn't just start the Ganirelix earlier, when they were waffling about it). They increased my dosage to 4 vials of Menopur, 3 vials of Bravelle, and Ganirelix in the morning. Once you pass 6 vials of Bravelle/Menopur, you can't combine them anymore so now I have to do 3 injections a day instead of 1, and you can imagine how I feel about this after what happened last night. On top of it all I had to order another $1100 worth of meds this morning. I am hating this.

@spaniellove: {hugs!hugs!hugs!} why does it have to be so hard??? So it's good news that you have more follicles, right? The money, the injections, the rollercoaster of emotions...I hope you are still taking moments to yourself. C+B, pedicure, anything that can give you a break from the crazy? You can do this.

@ladybee: woohoo! Congrats on your BFP!
@spaniellove: I'm so so sorry. Big Internet hugs!
@sweetooth: So for the rest of my TWW, I'm going to order all of those foods you can't have while pregnant. I'm craving St. Andre cheese. Feel like getting sushi this weekend. I had Prime Rib cooked medium on Tuesday for our early V day dinner.

@bluestriped bee: Oooh fun! I'm doing something kind of similar - but planning for all of those indulgences AFTER I find out the results I have a place picked out for a lovely meal with wine, and I also have a bar I've had my eye on and I want to go for some drinks. I figure if I get a positive, I'll be so happy I won't need these treats. But if I get a negative, then I'll have good things to look forward to

@bluestriped bee: I think that is a great idea! I'm going to start a list

@spaniellove: I'm so sorry. What a stressful and frustrating night for you! I think it's totally understandable that you are feeling that way - hopefully this cycle will be IT and you won't have to decide!

I'm still just waiting on AF. It's crazy, this month I'm actually thinking - If you're going to come, just come already bc I want to get my blood work done! The sick part of me keeps hoping, well, maybe since this is our LAST cycle before starting our steps with the RE, it will happen. Um, probably not At least this cycle I'll be hopeful about the future as oppose to the last 18 cycles!!

@Suzimo: Oh, I wanted to tell you that my office was apparently different. For most blood work I got called with results about 3-4 hours later unless they had to send it out. If it got sent out they discussed it with me at my next appointment (which was usually in just a few days anyway). Hopefully you get to hear sooner rather than later.

@mrs.halfsie: I recently had to try gluten free because I learned I have Hashimoto's (a thyroid condition). I found its not that hard at home, especially since there are so many gluten free products available now (like great pasta). The hard part was eating out! Check out glutenfreegoddess.blogspot.com and glutenfreegirl.com . I found a lot on pinterest too. I'm now "gluten-low" instead of free.

@mrs.halfsie: I haven't gone gluten free but I am Vit D insufficient too. They just put me on a 2000mg pill daily and that was it. Super easy. I do have many friends who have gone gluten free though and many often follow the paleo diet for recipes and such.

Sorry, cross-posting from the IVF thread because I'm lazy: I had another appointment this morning and the same 8 follicles are there that we saw yesterday. The biggest one is 18.5 and they think it may not contain an egg because it's hazy. But otherwise, the two that were under 10mm yesterday are at 10 and 10.5 today, so there's a chance that they'll all be a decent size. The doctor said I'll probably be ready to trigger by Monday, so I'm guessing ER will be Wednesday. I'm soooo ready for the injections to be over!

So I caved. I peed on a stick this evening and it's as stark white as it always is. I'm beginning to think I just have a bunch of broken pee sticks. Right? I mean, that's the only logical explanation to why I still haven't gotten pregnant after 19 months of trying. I'm also feeling like, after trying for this long, and dreading more intensive medical intervention, do I really even want this? Why am I putting myself and my marriage through this?

I don't know you guys. I'm just over this. Time for some wine.

@sweetooth: I'm so sorry. But! It is still possible for it to be early for a positive HPT and for your beta to be positive. I completely understand the questioning and dread. This is so difficult and just sucks the life out of you.

I forgot to tell the story of what happened this morning. I've been feeling lately like I'm not even a human anymore, just maybe a pincushion or an incubator, and today took the cake. On Saturdays they see us by appointment instead of first come first serve so I got the first appointment, and someone forgot to set up the u/s correctly. But the dr didn't realize it until he'd stuck the wand in me, so he left the thing in me while he and the nurse fiddled with the machine for a while. Then they called in an ultrasound tech to help, so between them and DH it got really crowded. Meanwhile he was absentmindedly pushing the wand in and out...I wish I was kidding.

@sweetooth: I tested again. I woke up this morning after having a dream where I saw two lines. Woke up and tested... BFN. Then I went back to sleep and continued to have pregnancy dreams. Ugh, man. I'm 10 DPO today.

@spaniellove: Oh, I'm so sorry. That was probably awkward and/or uncomfortable.

@sweetooth: How are you doing today?

As for me, I tested again. It's 11 DPO and BFN. I really suck at this waiting to test part. LOL! This morning, I was telling myself I could skip today and test tomorrow. Yeah... I wasn't strong enough. Caved about 7:30p tonight. I think I'm a little obsessed about being able to find out as early as possible. You know that thread that asks you how soon you got your BFP? I want to be able to tell people that I tested from day X to day X and got a BFN and then on day Y, I got my BFP. I really do suck at waiting. If I ever get pregnant, I can't imagine how impatient I will get.

Oh, so I noticed that I'm urinating a lot. I'm beginning to think I have diabetes or something. Haha. Well, of course, I googled it and there are threads that show early signs of pregnancy being frequent urination. Although, I don't have any sore boobs so I'm a little disappointed that this might not be my month.

It would be cool to take a picture like this. http://community.babycenter.com/post/a29593817/show_me_your_early_wondfo_bfps

@marionberry: @spaniellove: @mrs.halfsie: @bluestriped bee: Thank you all for your feedback the other night. I posted in a bad mood. I guess I just wanted to feel like I was in control of my fate. I peed on a stick again yesterday and it was still stark white. Today is 14dpo and I had my bloodwork drawn this AM. I'm just thinking of it as the bloodwork for the next IUI.

@marionberry: @bluestriped bee: @mrs.halfsie: Yeah, it was kind of creepy! Although after knowing this doctor for a while I think it was more that he has the attention span of a child so I forgave him.

Yaaaayyyy my trigger is tonight and my egg retrieval is scheduled for Wednesday morning! I can't believe I made it to ER!

I'm also somewhat pissed that it's clear they used the wrong protocol, but that is another story. I don't know if I can go through this ever again, but if I do it won't be with this clinic.