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@justdarling: I'm sure it's hard to turn off the analyzing even when you're taking a month off. I hope your husband gets answers today that help you both move closer to your BFP.

@Mrs.Someone: Thanks! I hope that your temperature shift is a good sign for you and that your acupuncturist can provide you more insight today.

@spaniellove: Tomorrow's the big day! What time is your appointment?

@marionberry: Tomorrow at 8am...of course they don't call until the afternoon and I'll just have the whole day to pull my hair out!

@tequiero21: Ah yeah, 30k was the cost of doing it twice!

@spaniellove: Hopefully they'll call sooner rather than later. Ours was at 730 and they called by 1130. Try to stay busy at work in the meantime. Praying for great news!

Thanks ladies for such a warm welcome.

@spaniellove: all the best with your beta tomorrow, the waiting is the worst part

@Mrs.Someone: Good luck, the temp increase sounds promising

@Happygal: Sorry, I didn't mean to imply that you were infirtile.

@sweetooth: Thanks for understanding. Its hard to not have anyone to talk to IRL and I don't want to put any additional pressure or stress on my DH

@Mrswin: no apologies needed! I was just explaining why I'm on this thread (I was apprehensive to post here at first b/c I didn't want to seem insensitive). You didn't say anything that offended me at all.

Well, the blood is drawn...but I think I know in my heart that I'm out. The lines I had before didn't get darker after the tests I posted; it's almost nonexistent this morning.

What I need to figure out now is how to make a logical choice about where to do my next/last IVF cycle and what to push for. So I went ahead and made an appointment with the other clinic since I can always cancel it, but their available appointments are always far out.

The 7 mature follicles I got with my IUI cycle was better than this IVF cycle, with half the stims, and I worry that the high dose they used for IVF ruined the egg quality. As much as I'd like to get a great number that would guarantee having something to freeze, I think getting more than 5 or 7 just doesn't happen with DOR (it's not uncommon to not even make it to retrieval or transfer, I think).

I told DH that if the beta is negative I want to have clams and linguine with a nice bottle of Sancerre!

Well I guess I'll just add to the disappointing news on here. I got a big temp drop this morning I know I'm not out yet, but its not looking good. I was all excited yesterday because my acupuncturist seemed to be prepping me for the next step.

@mrswin: Welcome :).

@bluestriped bee: I'm really sorry things aren't working out for you :(. I totally empathize, as I've only ovulated 3 times in 10 months. One thing I've learned this past year from losing my job and TTCing with no luck, is that you should never put things off on the chance something else might happen. If you want to look for a new job, I would absolutely update your resume and start applying. Or, start posting it on sites like Monster and Indeed. I get a ton of calls from recruiters that find my resume on those sites.

@spaniellove: I was hoping to see an update from you this morning, I really hope you get good news later today. I'm so sorry if it doesn't work out :(. I think you're doing the right thing though in seeing another clinic. I don't think your current doctors have done a very good job in getting the right protocol for you. I know it's a little bit of a step backwards, but maybe with a new clinic you could do another IUI after explaining the issues with your cervix? That way you could see how they do getting you to respond (like another IVF practice), and it's not as expensive as doing another IVF. And maybe with good catheter placement, it would be successful for you. I would hate to see you have to give up so soon when it shows how much you want a family.

AFM, I'm hanging out at 3DPO. Every time I think about when I should test, it gets a little earlier. Last month I either had a CP or (more likely) was still picking up the trigger until 12DPO (14DPT! >:( ). I don't want to get my hopes up too soon by seeing the trigger, but I know that this time if I'm going to test before the beta I need to do it for multiple days to see the progression, not just whether there's a line. DH and I are so hopeful for this cycle. Everything finally went well - I had two eggs, I ovulated in a normal time frame (instead of at CD28) and DH said this time just felt different to him. It's going to be heartbreaking if it didn't work. Plus I find out just a few days before my 35th birthday.

On top of that, things have been a real struggle lately and some good news would really be welcome. I've mentioned it before, but I was laid off in October. I work in a very specialized and highly competitive field and I've had no luck getting another job. I keep getting to the interview stage, and they always choose someone else. I have no idea what I'm doing wrong :(. I now have to expand my search into Boston/Cambridge which means drive to the commuter rail, then take the train, then the subway. So I'm looking at 1.5 hour commute :-S.

Financially we're fine with me not working for a while, but I feel kind of pointless without a job. I feel like so much of my life is in limbo. I have no idea what the rest of this year will look like. *sigh* okay, enough complaining from me. Back to IF talk.

@MrsCB: Part of my hope in trying the other RE is that we might be able to try something different with IUI. I've heard many stories where he's been successful with IUI instead of IVF because he's much more experimental. It was ruled out for us in the beginning because of MFI, but now that we know the motility is fine, we'd like to try it again. I also want to talk to him about immunity since I think he's much more likely to test and treat for that. The anesthesiologist at my egg retrieval commented that he'd never seen a patient with as many (confirmed) allergies as I had...and part of me wonders if I only got close this time because I was on Medrol.

If you know you'll want to test...how would you feel about testing out the trigger? Then you could know for sure what you're seeing.

@MrsCB: I'm sure you're not doing anything wrong in those interviews. I bet you're knocking it out of the park! Being in a highly specialized and competitive field, makes for a tough interview process. Keep trying! I know it must seem like so much is in limbo right now with the job search and the TTC journey. I'm crossing everything for you that this is your cycle!

I'm trying to stay calm today. It's currently snowing outside. The day before my 3rd IUI is scheduled, we get a snowstorm. I'm fine with the white fluffy stuff, as long as the roads stay clear and doctor's offices stay open. I did NOT stick myself in the tummy for 10 days to have this thing cancelled because of mother nature. That would be SO cruel of you mother nature, you hear me?? (yes, I'm talking to mother nature via Hellobee

@sweetooth: Thank you It finally occurred to me this morning that it's March! Which means that it's my birthday month. I have a tradition every year that I go all out for my birthday month, the whole month!

My friends started the tradition my senior year of HS, when I was deeply depressed. The morning I came to school and decided to talk to a counselor about how suicidal I was, she told me that my classmate had killed herself that weekend. That was my wake up call, so March has always been about celebrating that I'm still alive.

@mrs.someone: I'm sorry about the temp drop! Your cycle looked really good this time. It's not over until it's over though.
@mrscb: I'm sure one of these days you'll get picked first. I absolutely hate interviews and have had a few in the past I know I aced and yet they still pick someone else. Maybe that's fate saying it wasn't the right job yet.
@sweettooth: Good luck this TWW!

@MrsCB: Hmm, I'll check and see. I remember when Hurricane Sandy was rolling through they were doing everything they could for time sensitive procedures. I think I'll see what the accumulation is like by noon and check in with the office. The hotel thing isn't a bad idea...except for adding to the grand tally that fertility is already costing

They called. It was negative.

@spaniellove: NO!!!!!!!!!!

@spaniellove: so sorry to hear Sometimes I wish we were all in the same city so we could go out and have commiserative drinks together... I hope your birthday festivities brings you happiness!

@bluestriped bee: sad to hear about another cancelled cycle for you

We need some good news in here... Anyone? Doesn't have to be baby related...

@sweetooth: I hate temping and always have actually! I only do it because my acupuncturist insists on it (since it gives her so much info). If this cycle truly is a bust, then I think I'm taking next month off from trying so hard, including acupuncture. I do think it helps, but I can't justify continuing to pay for it out of pocket at this point.

Guys, it's okay. You are all so sweet and thoughtful! The worst part of the call was honestly the pity in the nurse's voice - I knew what she was going to say as soon as she started talking. Right now I just want to focus on fun and happy things and figuring out a plan of action with a clinic! It's actually nice to realize that IVF#2 may not be our one and only chance left if we're open to IUI again with someone who's very analytical and experimental.