Let me just say first that our little bean was 100% planned and I am so thrilled to be carrying it. Especially now, when I'm only 4 weeks and it's still a super secret and every twinge I have is private, it's so freaking cool that I have this little poppyseed growing inside of me.
But I am also scared senseless! Last night I was sobbing telling my husband that I'm so scared I'm going to do the wrong thing, that it's such a huge responsibility having this little human growing inside of me, and then I'm going to be responsible for them FOREVER and I just got really overwhelmed. I know that if something were to happen (a miscarriage, etc.) it wouldn't be my fault... but I'm totally frightened of SOMETHING happening. I'm hoping that I'll relax more once we're over the hump, but right now I vacillate between pure elation and total, unbridled terror.
Please tell me this is somewhat common? Any tips for chilling out? Background: This is pretty much what I'm like about everything. I'd really like to calm the eff down so I don't turn our child into a ball of neurosis.
Funny enough, I find it takes my mind off of things to focus on him/her rather than all the things that could go wrong.
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