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I have the stomach flu and feel like poo. I'm also very stressed about how this may be affecting baby. And the weight gain thread has me scared about my lack of weight gain at 15 weeks. Thank God I have a Dr's appointment tomorrow.

I'm sorry you had so many things go wrong!! I hope tomorrow is better for you!

*hugs*!!!!

OMG thank you for posting the pity party thread. I was going to start one titled "What do you do when you're cranky?" and "I feel like all I do here in Hellobee is whine!"

First of all, sorry for your sucky day Hope everything is better better better soon!!

Here we go:

1) The nosebleed incident started my day from minute one... see here for deets: http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/first-nosebleed

2) Work sucked today. Not gonna go into details but it was super annoying.

3) We got pizza for dinner and I had no appetite at all. I halfheartedly ate a slice and a half, and now I'm hungry again.

4) I washed and dried all the bloody stuff from this morning, and when we got home from work I took it out of the dryer to make Wagon Jr.'s bed before bedtime. Turns out I bought a cheap-ass crib pad that melted in the dryer even though we put it on medium heat and it wouldn't fit on the crib mattress anymore. FREAKING a. This was 10 mins before bedtime too. I threw one of our Ultimate Crib Sheets on the mattress and put a crib sheet over it, but it's not a fitted pad (just a pad that can slide around) so it's not secure at ALL. I could kick myself for 1) buying a cheap-ass mattress pad and 2) not buying two. Sent Wagon Sr. out to buy two good-quality pads and some more crib sheets.

5) As soon as Wagon Sr. started putting Wagon Jr. down for bed, I came downstairs to order the crib pads. The internet was not working. By the time Wagon Sr. finished with bedtime and fixed the internet, it was too late to order from Amazon to get here by tomorrow. (it said "order in the next 23 hours and 47 minutes to receive this by Thursday." ugh.) Hence sending out Wagon Sr. for the pads.

6) Wagon Sr. put Wagon Jr. down for bed and he cried on and off for a good 30 mins before going to sleep. We didn't get him because we knew he'd go down on his own eventually, but it sucked to hear him cry. He can now cry for mommy. Ugh.

I think that's it... for now. Gonna splurge on some dessert, not sure what yet, and more Hellobeeing to cheer me up!

Also, feeling sad/conflicted about switching to formula feeding.

@mrs. wagon: oh my lanta! what a day. I'm so sorry!!

@regberadaisy: yes.. I sympathize. My husband works 12 hours days Monday-Wednesday and then a normal 8 hour day on Thursday. So any parenting techniques/weans etc I have to do on my own too. Like trying to get Cobi to nap in his own bed was an all day thing for me, then when DH gets home at 10:15pm, I just collapsed into his arms crying basically. It's really hard doing it on your own! Even just the lack of emotional support.

Today wasn't too bad of a day, except for one MAJOR raincloud.

Up until now DH's student loans have been deferred, this month was scheduled for him to resume payments, and we had no idea what the payments would be. With my not working and relying solely on DH's income, we make next to nothing with literally NOTHING left over at the end of the month. We have a small emergency fund, but that's it. After the bills are paid, groceries bought - we got nada. We haven't bought clothes since I was working. SO he tells me in a text today that his student loan bill needs to be paid TODAY. Which of course is several hundred dollars, which we do not have. Even if I had tried to budget for it, we would have been short.

(sighs) money is so depressing. I hate it. Now DH is looking for tutoring jobs and I asked to pick up an extra day of nannying, even though it's hard enough with a 3 mos old to do one day.

Ohhhh thank you for posting. I am just worn down by doing the SAHM thing. The kiddo is great but I feel like a hamster on a wheel with nothing to look forward to and nothing to work for. Papa Y knows I'm sad and knows why but it's hard to talk to him about it. Partly because I'm jealous that he gets his career in full swing and I am once again the one who must make sacrifices to make it happen.

@Mrs. Yoyo: yeah I always tell DH I'm jealous he's got his whole life together, he has a master degree, a career, a beautiful wife (hehe) and a wonderful baby - his life is made.

Mine? blegh. lol

@regberadaisy: yeah maybe, but til when?! I won't be able to work until I finish my bachelors degree so it's not like we'll really be able to make more anytime soon. We'll figure it out, I make a little extra from nannying and if he gets some tutoring jobs on the side, every little bit counts.

It is bittersweet, isn't it? We love being with our LO's, but it's so taxing too. But you have a colicky baby! I couldn't imagine. Cobi is such a good little boy, I feel so lucky.

@regberadaisy: Having a newborn is tough no matter what though. What got me through the newborn phase was actually that we traveled a lot, so I wasn't sitting home.

@MamaMoose: Thank you It's nice to hear it from someone else, even when you know it deep down.

@MamaMoose: I'd like to -- I actually don't think I've ever even been to Nashville at all!

@Jennimac: Many hugs to you. Family reunions are tough without the weight of all that on your shoulders. I heartily endorse another pitcher of corona-ritas to get you through the weekend.

I just wanted to say that you all deserve a couple rounds of coronaritas and many (((hugs))). You have all made my utterly craptastic work day seem like a walk in the park. And yet here you are, at the end of a long, frustrating, and challenging day, supporting each other. Totally freaking awesome.

@MsLipGloss: I'm so sorry you had a bad day at work. I couldn't imagine working through the summer. Now I realize that I'm doing a lot of stuff for my classroom, but somehow it seems fun since I don't technically don't 'have' to do it right now. I completely have the mindset of a teacher--off in the summer, Christmas break, Spring break, and snow days.

@MsLipGloss: Oh, the pantyhose!!!!! I'm in the South and we've had high humidities days already and hit 100. Yuck! It's not even JULY! I don't know what I'd do if I had to put on pantyhose in the summer.

Ladies, I was watching the Queen's Diamond Jubilee Concert and Sir Paul sang "Let it Be". It was perfect. Just what I need at this moment. I'm going to sip some more corona-ritas and let it be.

Yay for pity parties, it has definitely been one of those days for me... I have been stress eating like a retard and have brought my total weight gain up to 32 lbs and I have spent my day crying over the whole breech thing. It doesn't help that I am in a heap of pain, I get really bad cramps basically everytime I move and everytime I get up my whole pelvic region feels like it will snap in half. Thanks for letting me complain, I hope you all feel better soon

Hope everyone has a better day....and rest of the week!

@Coco Bee: People LOVE Etsy. Sooo much of my wedding stuff was bought from there, and I'm totally going to buy baby stuff and home stuff when we get to those points. I say do it!

((hugs to all of you)) Hope today is better for everyone.

@JoJoGirl: Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

@mrs. wagon: Haha oh gosh, it's not stupid! Everyone's pity is hard for them and justified!!!! Thanks though... I posted most of the story in the June TWW thread this morning. Trying not to worry too much and hopefully will have some answers Friday after a mammogram.

@dc yoga bee: Thanks