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My pity party started on Saturday...I am in my SIL's wedding this Saturday and tried on my bridesmaids dress for the first time since giving birth 5 weeks ago...I had a crazy meltdown because it didn't fit! My damn hips!!! I freaked out because I only have a week to get it to fit. My mom had to take it out...I'm trying it on today to make sure it fits...fingers crossed!!!
The thing that really upset me was that my body did absolutely nothing to go into labor..no dilating, no BH, no water breaking, no baby dropping(or even getting close to going into my pelvis)...the only thing it did was expand my hips! And I didn't even give birth through them. lol

@Shimmer: you poor thing...!!!! you really do deserve this pity party!!!

I'm gonna chime in again. I was gonna start a new thread but I figured I'd just hide it in here....

Things have been tough lately. Even though we had a really fun trip this past weekend, coming back has been really rough. Wagon Jr.'s transition to us being back has definitely been difficult-- he's been a lot crankier and whinier than usual, leading to a lot more crying around bedtime. Last night we experimented with a longer, more soothing bedtime routine-- playing with more toys in the bath (usually his bath is a 2 min shower) and reading a book before putting him down. This backfired big time-- he didn't want to get out of the bath, and he wanted us to read the book again and again and again. Then when Wagon Sr. put him down for bed, Wagon Jr. wouldn't let him leave. He had to sit there with him for an hour.

THEN at 2:30am he woke up with a scream and almost climbed out of the crib. (He did this the first day we were back and fell out onto the hardwood floor... so now we have soft pillows all around the crib). I went in and sat with him until he fell asleep, which took more than an hour, and when I left he woke up and freaked out for about 25 minutes. I'm talking bashing his whole body against the crib bars, trying to climb out, screaming at the top of his lungs. I didn't go back in because I knew he was just angry, not scared, and I knew I had to let him tire himself out so he could just go to sleep out of exhaustion. Eventually he did.

All of this, piled with the fact that this pregnancy has been pretty physically tough on me and work has not been great lately has me feeling pretty low. I cried all night last night and I woke up feeling no better. I took the day off and slept most of the morning (needed it after that horrific night) and I still don't feel any better. I just feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Wagon Sr. tried to help me by saying the end is near, but the end includes a new baby that requires even MORE work and MORE tearful and frustrating nights! Not to mention dealing with Wagon Jr.'s transition to being a big brother, and any complications with having my mom around on a regular basis. And my MIL.

Didn't help that something went awry with my phone and I kept texting Wagon Sr. with no response or calls... turns out he was texting and calling and nothing was coming through, and he thought I was upset with him for not being able to stay home with me today and therefore not answering his calls....

I'm looking forward to the post-a-thon tonight... Hellobee really does cheer me up a lot!!!... but I'm so terribly low I'll probably just be a big party pooper.

@mrs. wagon: Oh dear! Thinking of you!

I so wish I saw this yesterday.
1)We lost out on a house to a higher bidder. There isn't anything else we even want to go see, let alone make an offer on
2) DH is stressed to the max with work and school (getting his MBA online). He makes me want to cry to hear him dealing with everything and there is nothing I can do to help.
3) I just miss him, he travels during the week and school takes up most of his weekends. We pretty much see each other at night on the weekends.
4) Then our TV stopped working last night. Ordered a new part, it will be here in a week. So I have to watch TV in the bedroom. I wanted to finally finish Grey's season this weekend. At least we have another TV.
5) I just know AF is going to show up this weekend On the plus side if it does, I do need some wine after this week.

I am just tired and ready for this week to be over!!!

@mrs. wagon: *hugs* to you! Ugh I can't imagine how you feel!

@Jumpingjacks: @Smurfette: *hugs* to you ladies too!

@MrsFarmer: and *hugs* to you! CD1 does suck and cramps don't help anything!!:(

@Smurfette: @MrsFarmer: Big hugs, ladies.

It sounds like most of us need a REDO for this week! Tomorrow is Friday and then it's the weekend and then onto better weeks next week!!

@mediagirl: @Shimmer: @Rubies: @regberadaisy: thanks you guys!!! I agree with mediagirl, we could all use a do over this week. Or fast forward!

I found out today that someone at my work is quitting and that really broke the camel's back. I'm for once going to be discreet just in case, but it's someone i work with closely and they're leaving during the time I'll be out on maternity leave so this really complicates things a lot. Ugh.

On a brighter note, bedtime was not horrible, which i will blog about tonight!!

@mrs. wagon: omg you poor thing!!!!!!! Big big hugs
Hope you feel better and hope the little guy gets back to his usual self!