I had a miscarriage in December. I got pregnant again quickly, which I’m very grateful for, but I cannot shake the feeling that I am just waiting for something to go horribly wrong. I keep thinking each milestone will make me feel a little better - making it past the week I miscarried, getting to 2nd trimester, etc. - but that doesn’t seem to be happening. I had my 20 week ultrasound last week and everything looks good, and I know that should make me feel better, but it doesn’t. I know it’s irrational but I feel like I just KNOW something will go wrong, and I’m pretty sure my family thinks I am crazy.
I’m seeing a therapist, I’m on anxiety meds (predating pregnancy), I’m using the Expectful meditation app every day...I am just starting to think maybe I would relax til I’m holding her. I wasn’t anxious at all when I was pregnant with my son. Just looking for advice or confirmation I’m not crazy I guess. Thanks.