I'm not feeling well. It's just a fact. I woke up yesterday with a sore throat, a stuffy nose (but still breathable),and my jaw and ear hurting on one side. In the afternoon, the pain in my ear intensified but by bedtime, it was about the same it had been all day. This morning I wake up and my throat still hurts, my jaw still feels like it's trying to lock up because of the pain, both my ears hurt a little, and I'm just drained. I just don't fell well. Still functioning but uncomfortable.

My ILs are coming over tonight. They're bringing burgers and are going to be here for two hours. The reason for this visit? They started complaining that they haven't seen the kids in a while. It's been something like a month but I hadn't noticed. Life is busy! My ILs and I don't get along very well because of "miscommunications" and so on. At one point, my MIL sat on my couch and cried because she thought I hated her. You can imagine how wonderful that made me feel. We just don't see eye to eye on practically anything and I'm always doing something to offend them.

Part of me wants to postpone this visit. Because I'm not feeling well, I'll probably be a little cranky. And because I'm not feeling well, they'll probably try to take the babies off my hands. I don't need or want the babies off my hands, I'm not having any problem with the kids. Besides, I don't like how they handle the kids (FIL jiggled poor Em half to death last time they were here, MIL hovered over H the entire time he was playing even after being told repeatedly to just leave him alone). It's just not a great situation whenever they're over which is why I never miss their presence.

But if I don't let them in the house now, on a time constraint like this, we'll just have to see them another time. And possibly for a longer time. There's no guarantee that other time will be any better - Em might be teething, H might have a bad day, DH or I might be sick (or both). Too many unknown factors. So do I suck it up this time and get it over with, hoping and praying I don't see them for another month? Or do I postpone and hope it'll go over well later?

I'm torn.