I was not TTC, in fact, I was on BC.
I "missed" my period 6 weeks ago but I didn't think anything of it because I'm on the Depo shot & I never get periods while on the Depo.
But 3 days ago I saw spotting. Yesterday my husband told me my boobs were huge. I pretty much at that point assumed I was getting a late period and my breasts were swollen, no biggie, the birth control had just done a # on my cycle days.
But last night I had terrible cramps and today it got worse. It was NOTHING like I ever felt before.
I told DH I felt like my insides were going to come out.
I am telling you, contractions at their mid stages...that bad. Stabbing pains and back pains that stopped me mid-track.
Anyways- went to the bathroom and ....passed something.
I am absolutely horrified. Like, honestly traumatized.
I don't know how to feel because I DID NOT want to be pregnant. I am not sad about miscarrying per say because I didn't know I was pregnant. I am more disturbed by the fact that I was on BC and got pregnant then lost it and I feel like that's my fault. And I don't even know how far along I am but I passed SOMETHING.
I don't even know how to describe it.
Do you think its all gone? Should I call my doctor now or wait until Monday morning?

I just took a preg test and got a faint positive on a cheapie. I am assuming the fetus stopped growing days ago.
I'm shaking....sad? scared? guilty? I don't know...but what I saw is scarred in my memory for a looooooong time.

*I didn't want to make this gold, because I am in desperate need of as much advice from experienced women as I can get. I do ask though, that none of this is mentioned on other social networks (IG or anything...) I won't be telling anyone IRL.