I feel ridiculous but I don't feel like I belong in a loss board or anything. After all my loss was just a chemical pregnancy. Although I am almost 8 weeks pregnant I am finding it hard to celebrate this pregnancy. I am so fearful of another loss and find myself grieving at night when I'm the only one awake. I feel bad that I can't celebrate this rainbow the way i should but I didn't think I would still be grieving once I got pregnant again. When did you finally feel able to celebrate a pregnancy after you experienced a loss?
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I'm so sorry. It's so hard after a loss. But try to let yourself feel what you need to feel. I slowly celebrated a bit more and more with each healthy milestone.
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I'm so sorry. Early losses are really tough and it's normal to grieve over them, just as much as any other loss. I don't think there's a right or wrong way to celebrate a rainbow baby, however you feel about it is perfectly legitimate and won't affect how bonded you are once the baby is born. I wish I had some insights on how to make things feel better as I know it really sucks, but in any case I'm rooting for you and sending good vibes for a healthy pregnancy. -
I couldn't really be sure until about 16 weeks for me. I felt better after each scan/appointment hearing the heartbeat. It takes time.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. It was a slow process for me, both times. I had my LO after one loss and I think I was only really able to celebrate once I hit 2nd trimester and saw her heart beating during the NT scan. I'm currently pregnant with #2 after 2 more losses and for this one, it took even longer and I didn't really feel good about it until I started feeling him move consistently. It definitely takes time and don't feel guilty for grieving your other pregnancy. Hugs and best of luck.
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I honestly didn't celebrate my last pregnancy at all. I was sure it was going to end at every point, every day. So when she was born, I could finally celebrate. Hugs to you, I hope you can feel excitement soon.
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I had an early loss too and sometimes it still feels weird being in the loss club. For me when I heard the baby's heartbeat, a milestone I didn't experience in my first pregnancy, things got better. I still struggled to bond with baby in utero. EBF the baby really helped with bonding and I didn't start that until he was 6 weeks old. Don't beat yourself up if you're not joyful right now. The warm and fuzzies sometimes come much later.
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I'm sorry. I also had an early loss and can relate with having to grieve alone. And I was waiting for the other shoe to drop with my next pregnancy pretty much until I could feel movement every day, and even then I mentally knew everything is OK, but emotionally expected something to go wrong right up to the end. I don't think I could fully shake the feeling that this is it, DD is finally here safe, until she was like three months old. Ridiculous, I know, but the fear must have sunk its teeth deeper than I thought. It's different for everyone, but it's normal to not just "get over it" fast!
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@littleblessings: sorry you feel this way. it sounds totally normal and there is no "recommended" grieving time, its ok to still feel sad about your loss and also very natural to be worried about the new pregnancy. I dont have any helpful suggestions other than just let yourself grieve and dont rush yourself
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Another person here that can relate! I've experienced 2 losses (one before each successful pregnancy). And each time I got pregnant, I was so excited yet fearful. Something I told myself daily to help keep me (somewhat) grounded was, "I am pregnant today". Not to say I wasn't a hot mess and nervous and what not frequently, but telling myself that helped reign it in a bit. I'm so sorry to hear about your previous loss though. Wishing you a healthy and happy 9 months!
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I thought the same "today I am pregnant" mantra, and with each day/week/milestone it got easier to relax & celebrate. Congrats & be gentle on yourself. You don't have to know how to feel--just acknowledge your feelings & know they'll evolve.
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I think pregnancy after a loss is just difficult. I'm 31 weeks pregnant after 2 consecutive losses (neither were particularly late either - 7 weeks and 9 weeks) and I'm still a headcase. Some days my baby is less active so I feel less kicks and my mind automatically assumes the worst. All you can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other. I do feel bad that I haven't had the joyful pregnancy I had with my son before these miscarriages but your experiences change you.
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I can relate. I was a basketcase until DS2 was consistently moving around (which I didn't feel until super late because of anterior placenta), and even then, I had a hard time attaching until he was actually born. I think it's normal, and sadly, natural. Let yourself feel however you need to feel.
I'm so sorry. Early losses are really tough and it's normal to grieve over them, just as much as any other loss. I don't think there's a right or wrong way to celebrate a rainbow baby, however you feel about it is perfectly legitimate and won't affect how bonded you are once the baby is born. I wish I had some insights on how to make things feel better as I know it really sucks, but in any case I'm rooting for you and sending good vibes for a healthy pregnancy. 
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