So I never got a baby shower. We lived extremely far away until I was 38 weeks pregnant and couldn't afford to come back to have a shower. Then when we moved, my doctor wanted me close to my hospital, which was two hours away from everyone. Everyone had planned to give us sort of a "meet the baby" get together when LO was a few weeks old and we were settled in so that we'd have that in place of a shower. However, I've posted this before, my FIL passed away unexpectedly when LO was 2.5 weeks old. So it never happened (understandably), and I forgot about it until recently.

We have three baby showers coming up soon and I hate thinking about how there was never a shower to celebrate our LO. I didn't even want gifts. I just wanted a get together to talk about our baby and have all the attention be on her and her upcoming or already happened birth.

DH and I decided to go all out, even more than we had planned before, for LO's first birthday. Hopefully this will make me feel better about it and I realize that it honestly isn't a big deal. I know that I'm lucky that LO is happy and completely healthy and that we have such a wonderful family who loves her. I guess this is just a vent, and probably sounds selfish to some, but I just needed to get it out. DH is really the only one I've been able to talk to about this because I don't want anyone to feel bad, because they shouldn't.