So next week is my first ultrasound for bébé 2. I have to admit I am a little nervous. (for several reasons)

#1 - I always wanted to have a boy and a girl and the thought of having another boy with be devastating (for a little while, but then we will be extremely happy and grateful) We only want 2 kids and clearly I would love to have a girl. And if I don't then it means I'll never have one. The thought makes me sad (maybe I'm just super hormonal) lol

#2 - The hubs keeps joking that because I wanted a girl he's giving me 2. As in 2 girls. As in twins. OMG... I would DIE. Literally as in I don't even want to think having twins with a toddler. I would be way over my head, overwhelmed and just not ready for that. I've always said having twins for the first pregnancy would of been okay (and then I had 1 and clearly that was alot of work in itself) but having twins the second time around. OH MY.

I know there are worst things, and I don't want to feel ungrateful because I am pregnant, but I need to keep some sort of sanity. Plus, there is a big chance we can have twins seeing that it's on both sides of the family. So ya, I hope to hear just 1 heart come our first ultrasound.

Am I being completely ridiculous!?