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Induction for severe anxiety/depression and suicidal thoughts

  1. LindsayInNY

    bananas / 9229 posts

    Sending love. I hope you're doing okay @CatchAFallingStar:

  2. MrsSCB

    pomelo / 5257 posts

    Just wanted to send more love and support. Is your husband aware of how serious this is? I wish we could all be there to hold you up in person and help you get the support you need and deserve. I know you're in a very dark place right now, but it can get better, it will get better. Please, please consider seeking inpatient treatment, sharing the full measure of how bad things are with your OB. And even if you don't quite believe it, keep telling yourself you have so much to give, so much to live for, you are loved, you are important and valued, and things WILL get better. It may feel impossible or far away, but it's the truth.

  3. charleysmom

    grape / 89 posts

    I’m so sorry you are going through this but please know you don’t have to do it alone- there is help out there. I know when you’re stuck in the darkness that it’s difficult to see the light but please trust that’s it’s there. ❤

  4. QBbride

    pomegranate / 3192 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: I am so sorry you are feeling this way but know that your mind is lying to you and you deserve to get the help you so desperately need. Induction is NOT the only option. You need inpatient help immediately. You are so loved. Reach out to whoever will listen.

  5. crazydoglady

    nectarine / 2431 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: How are you?

  6. CatchAFallingStar

    nectarine / 2808 posts

    @crazydoglady: I’m doing ok. Just resting a lot today. My husband is home helping with the girls. Thank you so much for reaching out.

    Thank you to everyone here for caring so much!

  7. MeAgain

    pea / 16 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: We all care about you very much and we are here.

  8. LAZB

    pomegranate / 3904 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: i’m so sorry you’re struggling, I really hope that you can get some help and support soon

  9. MrsSCB

    pomelo / 5257 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: How are you doing today? I know we've all been thinking about you Don't feel like you have to answer if you're not up for it, but we're here for you.

  10. ALV91711

    pomelo / 5621 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: Just want to say good morning and send some more love. Was thinking about you and hoping your ok. Glad your hubby stayed home yesterday so you could get some rest.

  11. CatchAFallingStar

    nectarine / 2808 posts

    Thank you all. I’m hanging in there. Still having obsessive thoughts (fear of breast cancer is my obsession). I’m seeing a therapist today. Hoping it helps a little.

    On a different note, someone here found and wrote to my dad on Facebook. This caused a lot of additional stress for me. Please let me handle my family in my own way. I’m posting here because I need anonymous support. Thank you

  12. MeAgain

    pea / 16 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: That was me. And I told him it was me. Not sure if he relayed that to you. I also gave him my personal cell phone number so you could call me or text me if you needed it.

    And while I feel bad if it caused some drama, I don’t regret it, because posting that you are suicidal is not something to take lightly. You told the entire internet that you are feeling suicidal and then disappeared for a day at a time making all of us wonder if you harmed yourself.
    I would do it again in a heartbeat because I do care about you, and saying nothing could do a lot more harm than saying something.

    Here’s a story. A few years back there was a gas leak in NYC, where I live. Several people smelled it up to 24 hours before. SEVERAL. But stayed silent for fear of sounding like a crazy person or didn’t trust their instincts or fear of reporting a false alarm. EIGHT PEOPLE DIED. It was a massive gas leak that caused an explosion that leveled two apartment buildings. 70+ were injured. It was a tragedy.
    So I’m sorry but when someone says they feel suicidal and their posts have become increasingly concerning over several months, I’m going to say something. I could not live with myself if I had the thought “I should contact her family” and decided “nah, it might be a false alarm”. And then you harmed yourself.

    My cousin also died of suicide less than a year ago. So yeah, I’m going to say something.

    I will now back off since that’s clearly not what you wanted. But I don’t regret it. I hope you do find what you need.

  13. gotkimchi

    nectarine / 2400 posts

    @MeAgain: I actually had made a post yesterday that must have been eaten asking if anyone knew her in real life to make sure she was ok so I don’t think you’re off base

    @CatchAFallingStar: Mental health is serious. People die from suicide every day and I would feel terrible if something happened to you. I so desperately hope you get help and find peace.

  14. ALV91711

    pomelo / 5621 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: Glad you are going to talk to someone.

  15. CatchAFallingStar

    nectarine / 2808 posts

    @MeAgain: thank you for caring so much .. I really do appreciate it. And you’re right, a little drama is nothing compared to not saying anything and then learning the person committed suicide. So, thank you.

  16. Anonymous12345

    apple seed / 2 posts

    @MeAgain: You did the right thing. Thank you for reaching out in real life. Other people were contacted as well.

  17. Litebrite

    cherry / 174 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: thinking of you I hope you are getting the help you deserve in this hard time.

  18. QBbride

    pomegranate / 3192 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: still thinking of you I hope you’re able to get the support you need (and deserve!)

  19. Ms. RV

    pear / 1930 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: I have been going back and forth on whether or not to reply, and finally decided I wanted to. The last part of my last pregnancy, I had very serious suicidal ideations. The only thing that kept me going was the little life growing inside of me.. I couldn't deny him a life. I wanted to tell you that after giving birth it got so much easier. Instantly, I stopped thinking my family would be better off without me. I forgot I had those thoughts until my therapist brought them up. I know firsthand that what you are going through is the hardest thing ever but please know you probably just have to make it through a few more weeks to feel better. I know it is so scary to feel what you are feeling. Please, if you want my cell number or e-mail just let me know.

    You are also so brave for being able to admit how you are feeling.

  20. CatchAFallingStar

    nectarine / 2808 posts

    @Ms. RV: I’d love to be able to contact you.. you can text me. 541-337-7724 thank you!

  21. yellowbeach

    nectarine / 2648 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: I'm sorry that I am just now seeing this thread as I've been overseas for 2 weeks. But as an ER doctor, I just wanted to echo others and tell you that YOU are the reason I go to work every day. To help people like you who are in a tough place, struggling and feeling like they have few options and little support. Going to the ER for these feelings is absolutely appropriate and not an overreaction. Unlike an OB, as ER doc can be a quarterback to lead multiple team members (Psychiatry, OB) into the mix and formulate a plan that's safe for you and helps maintain a safe pregnancy. There are MANY options. I see at least 2-3 patients a month who are pregnant and struggling with severe mental health issues and suicidality. We want to help you, so please take that first step.

  22. ALV91711

    pomelo / 5621 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: was thinking of you. Just wanted to pop in and check how you are doing? Hope everything is ok.

  23. CatchAFallingStar

    nectarine / 2808 posts

    @ALV91711: thank you so much for checking in... I’ve been doing a little better. I’m in an intensive outpatient program 3 days a week. I think it’s helping. I’m still isolating a lot and staying in bed when I shouldn’t. But, I haven’t been having suicidal thoughts. I can’t wait to feel back to normal again.

  24. ALV91711

    pomelo / 5621 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: Glad to hear things are getting better. Progress is always good. In hope things continue to get better and remember we are all here for you.

  25. yellowbeach

    nectarine / 2648 posts

    @CatchAFallingStar: I'm so glad you've found a program that's helping some and giving you even just a little relief. Day by day, you can do this. Ask for help as you have been doing. Everyone is here for you.

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