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Well I don't really have any words of wisdom but I can tell you that I am fearing a lot of the same things that you are. I don't worry that DH will leave but that we won't have any us time and we will fight or just be out of touch with each other. I worry that I will sleep through the baby's cries or that one day I just won't be able to do it, especially as a SAHM the first few months. I worry my LO wont be happy or that we won't be able to give her the life we want to (financially in particular.) But I just try not to focus on all of it at once and I talk about it all with DH, some of it over and over again! He always says well it WILL be crappy sometimes but that's just life and well haw to figure it out. So while I don't have advice you are certainly not alone. I hope you can talk to others and definitely make sure all your medical providers know about your concerns so they can look out for you too. I don't have experience with anxiety/depression but I think lots of your feelings are just plain normal and you just love your boys.

I've also had nightmares about forgetting the baby places, but other ladies have said its normal so I don't worry about them! Lol that's one I don't THINK will actually happen!

What you're experiencing sounds pretty normal. It's really scary to bring a baby into the world. ...and even scarier to have 2 at the same time!

That being said, I experienced PPD, and it's scary stuff. If you're having a lot of feelings of depression and anxiety, you can get your doctor to prescribe you an anti-depressant that's safe for breastfeeding.

Also, get yourself some help during the early weeks if you can. The sleep deprivation is just tough. It will get better as soon as your babies start sleeping for longer chunks of time, but at the beginning it's rough. If you can get someone else to watch the babies for a few hours so you can get some sleep it will make you feel like a whole new person.

As the other ladies have stated, what you are feeling is SO normal! While excited, I remember feeling quite anxious with the idea of two babies coming at the same time that the first time I saw a pair of twins post finding out I was having two at once- I cried - and they weren't necessarily happy tears - they were "oh my god" tears!

As Mrs. Wagon said - one day at a time! The first few weeks with the twins home were the hardest. Who am I kidding? It's still super hard, but it has gotten much better and I keep telling myself that it'll get better and it'll get easier.

Before the babies' birth, I had anticipated arguing a lot with my hubs mainly from the stress and the sleepless nights, however on the contrary, it has been very smooth because in the beginning he was the one person who was there around the clock - side by side feeding and changing the babies with me - and truly understood what was going on.

With the breastfeeding - I wasn't able to successfully nurse my twins at the breast for a number of reasons - but I have been pumping and supplementing with formula. I think some other twin mamas on HB have successfully breastfed their twins so hopefully you can connect with them regarding this.

You can do this! I still feel like a newbie at this twin mama thing or a mama at that, but please feel free to reach out if needed. As MS. SK mentioned, twins need twin friends.. this is something I've learned recently and have been trying to reach out more to mothers of twins.

It's more stressful anticipating them than handling them. You adjust--and if you're worried about PPD, schedule a few screening/check up appts with a psychiatrist. I had bad baby blues, and went to get seen. I'm doing well now, but getting checked up again in 3 weeks.

For being a good mom: it will just happen. For being good with DH--you will work on it constantly, just like you did before babies. Make time for you two and you will be fine. (Even if it's having quick dinner together while lying on the floor and staring at the babies).

I still worry about dropping LO. He's 6 weeks and I haven't dropped him, but I still worry.

It's going to be OK!
And, the previous ladies have great advice (and experience with twins).