Well my SIL (DH's sister) announced yesterday that she and her husband are starting TTC, and I am jealous. I fully know I am being silly, but I need to vent here so I don't "vent" elsewhere.

A little background: My sister-in-law found out the date my husband was going to propose and made sure that her husband proposed before he did. They became engaged a week before us and were married 2 months before we were and throughout the entire wedding planning everyone was way more excited for her than for us. For example, at my bridal shower, the host (my other SIL) showed a slideshow of SIL's wedding, which just made me feel like even after her wedding was over and done with, and even while celebrating our marriage, people were still more interested in their wedding than ours.

I'm just a little bitter that she is probably going to be pregnant before us, and maybe we'll end up pregnant at the same time. We won't be starting TTC until 2 months from now, as we've always planned. I just have a feeling it's going to be like the wedding stuff all over again. Everyone will be smothering her in attention while no one will care about our pregnancy...

She still lives a party lifestyle and her and her husband have been having some problems, so I kind of hoped that they wouldn't be getting started for a while yet. *sigh* oh well. I know it's selfish and stupid, but I can't help feeling disappointed.

And before people ask, my side could care less about anything that happens in my life. They showed even less interest in my wedding than my in laws did. I don't have high hopes that they'll care about a baby any more.

I know it shouldn't matter. All that really matters is creating our own little family, who cares what anyone else thinks, right? I wish I had a thicker skin.