Sorry for posting a lot sometimes. I don't have many people to talk with about this.

So with both my previous pregnancies I never went into labor on my own. I had false labor with son around 36 weeks till I gave birth at 39 weeks and a few days. I was induced cause I was so miserable. I know a lot of women don't agree with that but i was hurting so much. Turned out my son had the cord wrapped around his neck and couldnt drop. When my water was broken in labor there was meconium in it. Fortunately my son didn't breath any of it in.

Well with my daughter I was diagnosed with an irritable uturus and had contraction regularly from 33 week till I was induced at 40 and a few days. It was so painful and felt like real labor to me at times but when I would go to the hospital to get checked my cervix never changed. The doctors at my old hospital treated me like I stupid When I was induced my daughter she also had meconium staining. I was fortunate she did not breath it in as well. I had great easy induction and great births. The actual labor process doenst scare me.

I have a new doctor this time cause of some issues I had with the staff and hospital with my old one. I've heard nothing but great things about this new practice and doctor. However I read on his bio he likes women to go into labor on their own.

Im just nervous. I've never gone into labor on my own and I have terrible false labor for weeks and my babies pooped in utero. I'm just nervous about something bad happening if I wait till 41 or 42 weeks to be induced. I'm afraid I'll never go on my own since my the contractions that I did have did not change my cervix.

I guess I'm just wondering is there anything I can do starting now to maybe help with labor. Any books to read or any tips. Maybe I just need to be educated about labor more and what is safe and not safe. People were I live dont really talk about birth much and most women are induced. Idk why both my babies pooped meconium. Idk I'd like to go into labor on my own but I'm scared my body can't. Sorry if this is all over the place.