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@kjpugs: You've go this! Keep moving!

@Sadieloo: I've had a few golf ball sized clots too. But twice I've passed blobs of dark almost black jelly. Freaky. I agree @evansjamie: the stitches are getting painful and itchy as time goes on.

@kjpugs: You got this, no problem!

@MapleMoose: Oh, I'm so glad it's not just mine! I was so afraid they were infected. But as long as I rinds with the peri bottle after every trip to the bathroom, they feel better. I am still terrified of every bowel movement, even though I am taking Colace.

Gotta go, hyla is fussing something fierce.

@Redmini1: @evansjamie: I haven't had a chance to get on a computer, otherwise I would post the videos here. Here's a link to another thread where I wrote about it. My post is towards the bottom. We swaddled DS until he was 4.5 months old and rarely had any escapes.

http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/swaddles-for-2-month-old-houdini#post-814059

@ladybee: Congrats mama! He is precious and I must say you look absolutely fantastic! I hope Matthew's medical needs are minor & you will be snuggling soon!

@ladybee: congrats! He's adorable! Hope he gets out of the nursery and into your arms ASAP! And I agree with the others, you look great!

Not sure where everyone lives but judging on the posts, looks like there's a lot of night time nursing going on

@MapleMoose: that's exactly how mind have been! They are nasty. Thankfully, I think I've turned a corner on the bleeding and it has decreased significantly.

@daniellemybelle: the clots aren't that bad, just a little freaky especially because you can really feel them and are like Wtf is THAT? I had some first degree tearing and things were, generally speaking, swollen and tight, but are significantly better now that it's been 10 days post delivery. One piece of advice -- take as much stuff , especially the hospital undies and an extra peri (squirt) bottle from the hospital if you can.

@Lozza: sorry, just how seeing this. LO is just refusing to latch, he's a very sleepy eater and it takes him a solid half hour to be woken up enough to eat. Something about me just sends him straight to sleep. He has to be under the bili lights and has a strict 30 minute break time to eat and we can't get him to latch in that time, let alone eat enough. I was discharged last night but they kept LO. They basically told us to go home, get dome sleep and let them formula syringe feed him while he's on the lights because we live so far rom the hospital and he's on a time crunch to eat. I have woken up at all of his feeding times tonight to pump and have gotten good at hand expressing so I'm doing that instead of using my electric pump bc if this is how our nursing relationship is going to be, il be exchanging it for formula. I don't have it in me to do this and I don't want to be a slave to my pump without the reward of nursing LO. He is just refusing to do it and it's really wearing me down. I have basically just been crying since he was born bc this is too hard and I can't feed my own baby. Flat nipples and a baby who doesn't want to even try with me is just too much . That is heartbreaking. On the good side I've got 20 ml of colostrum from my 2 hand express sessions to take to him. One more feeding sesh before I go pick him up so hopeful for more I'm drowning here.

@kjpugs: hope things are going well!!! It is well worth the pain.

Thank you everyone for your kind words. DS has been in the nursery since 12am and will stay till 7am for antibiotics, blood draws etc. I miss him like crazy.

@ladybee: Congratulations on your son! I hope all is going well and the rest of his nursery time passes quickly.

@kjpugs: I hope you are holding your girl soon!

I have to give my husband major credit. He was amazing yesterday. It's amazing how well they step it up when needed. I've never been more in love with him than I was watching him do kangaroo care and become emotional with our son.

@ladybee: that's awesome! I feel like the day I got pregnant I saw a bug change in DH. I don't know how to describe it, but it's like he is lighter, has opened up in a different way. He was so meant to be a Dad. The other day he was like 'I am so happy'. It warmed my heart for sure.

@evansjamie: very well said! And totally agree with you about the hubs. Isn't it amazing to see how they've changed?

Edit - I should really say how they've grown. We both have grown a lot in just this short period.

@evansjamie: I hear you! I keep a bag of nuts and dried fruit next to me on the couch so I have a handy snack for when I can't get myself together to eat a meal. My hubs is working a half day today in NYC (in exchange for 2 extra days off) so I've been on my own since 6:30 AM (he'll probably be home around 1 PM). I was a little nervous at first, but so far it hasn't been bad at all. I've managed to eat, brush my teeth and get some emails out. I'm learning...slowly...

@evansjamie: A half day really isn't bad at all. Starting next week it will be me, myself and I. Thank goodness for HB so I can feel and be connected to others! It amazes me with all the technology out there, that things like cell phones don't work everywhere! I would be totally stressed about not being able to reach my hubs if need be. I wish we all lived closer together to help each other out when our partners cant.

I hear you on the emotions. We were on the highway yesterday and there was a major accident (a car flipped over) that we probably missed being in by a few minutes. I was practically in hysterics over what could have been, that Alex is so little, etc. etc.

@jetsa: Since my husband is home, we are getting good at eating one handed, but I can't cook one handed. I need to learn how to use the Boba by myself, because Hyla loves to be held/worn.

In l&d. Was in early labor still when we got here. Got my epidural after 10 hours, at 3-4 centimeters. Mad respect for all you mommas who went without - there was no way I could handle it. I'm 5-6 during contractions now, and my water broke about 5 minutes after the epidural finished.

@abbylyn: @TFrances: so exciting! Keep us posted!!!

@ladybee: someone told me that you fall in love with your DH all again after you have a child together. I totally think this is true. It's like I knew he was this wonderful guy, this man of my dreams, but watching them with our LO just makes my heart stop.

@evansjamie: and @MrsTiz: that's completely right!!!! The best choice for feeding is what makes mom and child happy. Don't beat yourself up about anything. I'm sending happy thoughts and

@evansjamie: I almost starting bawling when DH was upset that our dog wasn't ready to be picked up from grooming. They got behind, so there wasn't anything they could do about it. I know he didn't even realize that it hurt me when he was frustrated that she wasn't ready. DH goes back to work for one night on Saturday, but one of my sisters is coming to stay with me. I am going to lose it when he goes back full time.

@abbylyn: keep going!!! Yay!!!

@TFrances: can't wait for an update!!!

Afm, I got my staples out. Everything looks great! I go back in a month!