So I am a HelloBee member under a different name, but my name is too similar to some things in real life and I'm not ready to be public.

I just got a positive pregnancy test yesterday. A few weeks ago, my husband and I made the decision to not try/not prevent and that night we got pregnant. I didn't think it would happen at all. I wasn't sure I wanted another child at all.

We both work full time, and have a 4 year old daughter.

I'm scared. My first thought was "oh fuck".
DD was planned and tried for, this wasn't an accident, but not planned either.

I'm just getting my body and life back after having DD. Pandemic has been really really tough on me/us.

I don't really know what I'm looking for. I just needed to get my thoughts out.