When you were pregnant after experiencing a loss(es), did you allow yourself to be excited? If not, how did you feel? How did you deal with all the emotions?

As there is every month, there is a chance I could be pregnant. I've had three confirmed losses in the past 7 months and keep telling myself that this month isn't it, next month will be "my" month, etc. I don't know if that's intuition talking or just my fear of being pregnant.