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@MLE81: I'm so sorry. I hope the u/s shows that everything is ok, if a bit slow, and that you still have cause to be excited. We'll be thinking of you and sending good thoughts.

@MLE81: I will be praying that the ultrasound goes well tomorrow. This is such a tough time and the uncertainty is so hard mentally. Keeping my fingers crossed too!

Finally managed to make my first appointment. It's scheduled for Nov 5 when I'm 8wks along.

@MLE81: So sorry the levels aren't higher. Still hopeful that tomorrow will bring good news. Hang in there.

@MLE81: I’m praying for a good appointment tomorrow. My numbers started out on the low side of normal too, and my Progesterone actually dropped quite a bit, but so far my bean is doing just fine. Hopefully yours is too!

@Jessiemuller88: I hear ya. Those early losses don’t help either. It plants that seed of doubt.

BUT, you’re so right. This is a brand new chapter and everything is looking good. Let’s enjoy it the best we can and stay positive!

@MLE81: How are you doing? Thinking about you.

@Mrs. Toad: Awww, you are so sweet.

And thank you to everyone else for the positive thoughts and well wishes.

I had my ultrasound this morning and it was a little...surreal. I was in with the tech for over 30 minutes, and then the doctor met with us to discuss next steps. The short version is that there is a sac and a fetal pole, but no heartbeat detected (yet). I was almost certain that there should be a detectable heartbeat by now (I am 7 weeks 1 day, apparently), but according to my doctor there doesn't "have" to be a detectable heartbeat until 7.5 weeks....so there is still a chance.

So, it's back to the waiting game.....another beta draw on Monday to see if my levels are continuing to rise (albeit slowly), and then a repeat ultrasound next Friday to confirm viability. Doc said she "does have concerns" (as do I), but there's still a chance fetal development could continue normally. I'm really trying to stay positive for my little bean, but at the same time I don't want to get my hopes up for nothing. Definitely not the way I want to spend the next week....but don't have a choice, really!

@MLE81: Oh man. I’m sorry it’s not definitively better news. Thinking of you and hope you are able to distract yourself these next few days. I know it’s so hard. Hoping for great news with the beta draw and follow up ultrasound.

So I talked to my provider today just to start the intake. And she offered me a dating ultrasound early before the standard one at 12 weeks. And I chickened out from fear and said no thanks. Stupid right? But I keep thinking about the bad ultrasounds I’ve had and feel like not having an early one will help me stay sane.

And that sounds so insane when I read it right now. Sigh. Early pregnancy just isn’t fun. Still fighting terrible nausea all the waking hours - well unless I sit or lay still for a long enough stretch.

@MrsJBeeG: i can totally see not wanting to have an ultrasound that could possibly be inconclusive. At 12 weeks you'll know it's either yes or no. I have everything crossed for you!

I'm waiting on nipt results and totally get the being freaked out and wanting to say never mind

@MamaBear87: thank you for making me feel better about my thought process. It could be earlier - day 10 weeks but the last time I had a good early ultrasound and then a bad one at 8 weeks and I’d rather just not go through the rollercoaster of emotions.

This site is so wonderful for the supportive people. Thank God as my DH is awesome but he doesn’t want to know all of the stuff I talk about on here.

@skinnycow: by the way I made a thread about struggling with feeling happy being pregnant due to losses. I was feeling such anxiety one morning. It helped me to hear others ideas. I know I’m not excited - I think occasional thoughts like where are we putting this crib when this baby is born - and then my mind yells - if this baby is born. I don’t have a lot of coping strategies but I know telling myself one day at a time and I’m pregnant now seems to be working the best for me. So much to you - I think we need to just be kind to ourselves with however we feel now because this pregnancy after loss is tough.

So it’s sunday afternoon, I’m testing a new bread recipe (apple cinnamon vanilla bread) and get hit with period like cramps. Of course I think “I’m miscarrying” like a crazy lady even though I know low level cramps like this can be normal - and no bleeding at all so far mind you - then I next get hit with a wave of awful nausea to where I almost throw up my mango oj I drank with lunch.

All this to say - I’m losing pieces of my sanity - although I did chuckle at myself. I looooove all that comes with early pregnancy.

@MrsJBeeG: Cramps can be so scary even though they're totally normal!

@SupernovaJ: Ugh, yes me too with the constipation. I didn't have it until much later with my daughter. Water has been making me nauseous also. I read mixing 1/4 Gatorade and 3/4 water helps so I've been doing that.

Hi, ladies! Just being a creepy-creeper and checking in on all of you. I miss so many of you from the POAS boards (*No luck this month for me so I'm already on the Nov board ) ... although I will say I'm far happier that all of you are on here! Good luck and I will check back (periodically) for updates as I feel really weird stalking the "mommas board" when I'm [clearly] not pregnant. 🤣 *Hugs*

Heeeeeeelllllpppp meeeeee I am miserableeeeeeeeeeee.

Ok, drama done. So glad to read this morning that I'm not the only one struggling with these symptoms. My body has fallen into a pattern: 5 days out of the week, I have horrible diahrrea within 1 minute of getting out of bed. I always feel like I'm going to definitely vomit (that feel in the back of your throat) but it always comes out the other end. Miserable. Hot/cold sweats, etc. But once it's gone, I'm great the rest of the day ... as long as I ignore the nauseousness and eat the moment my stomach decides it's hungry.

The other 2 days a week, I don't get sick. In fact, I'm totally constipated. I've tried everything I can think of. Fiber + water for the constipation days, water on the diahrrea days. Ginger for nausea. Nothing seems to change this cycle. I spent most of last week feeling horribly rundown and unhappy, and my emotions were all over the place (cue crying at my desk without knowing a single reason why!). I feel horribly saying it, but at more than one point I asked what the heck I have done to myself. (Imagine me crying to DH, "I paid good money to feel like this?!" XD XD XD

I see the RE tomorrow. So far the nurse has been dumbfounded by me and said maybe I just had a stomach virus (for four weeks?!), but I know that's not what this is. Morning diahrrea was my #1 AF endo symptom, so it's fitting that it's plaguing me now.

@foodiebee: Ugh, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad! I have no advice but I'll commiserate.

Nausea is the worst. I didn't have it with my first two pregnancies but I get nauseous the second my body decides I'm hungry, too! I went grocery shopping yesterday and I thought I was going to puke the entire time because the store smelled like fish (I'm sure the whole store didn't smell like fish but my pregnancy nose couldn't get rid of it!). I walked out with only $62 worth of groceries for our family of three because nothing looked appealing. I wish saltines, pretzels, and gatorade were considered a healthy pregnancy diet.

@Mrs. Toad: Yes to lying down. Also, gummy bears, of all things, help my nausea almost immediately.

@skinnycow: I can relate. I almost threw up all over my desk this morning when I tried to eat a hard-cooked egg. I'll add Cheez-Its to your list and then it sounds pefect.

@Kaohinani: Love seeing you on here but I stalk the POAS so much that I see you plenty!!