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@intotheocean: If they are still open, I would call! I had my blood work done late in the afternoon both times, and I gave the office until about 2 p.m. the next day before I called. I just didn't want them to forget about me!

@HeartAbandoned: @swedishfish: I had it at 11 yesterday. I usually get a call or email by now. And they are closed now ugh.

@MrsNoodle: @MrsB2012: Thinking of you two as we all have our ultrasounds tomorrow! I'm so nervous but so excited.

@Kbee: @MrsNoodle: yes, have a good ultrasound tomorrow! I'm excited. I'm hoping that after seeing the baby that I'll start to feel a little more attached to it. With B I was checking my pregnancy apps every day and thinking about the baby 24/7. With this one, I'm just not... as into it? I'm not sure how to put it. I'm super super excited, don't get me wrong. It was 100% planned and everything, I just don't feel the same way as I did with B. Maybe because she's consuming all my time still haha. I just hope it feels more real after tomorrow

Excited to hear about all the appointments today!

I know a lot of due date boards keep a running list of upcoming appointments. Do we want to add that to our list? I can add it later today or tomorrow.

I hope you ladies appts go great today!

Thanks for all of the kind welcomes and congrats! I hope I can keep up with this thread!

Has anyone else not called for their first appointment yet?

Sorry for this super long post and for being a board-downer.
First Apt. Update:

It did not go well. I should be 6+1 via O date and they couldn't see a gestational sac, let alone a baby. She said it looked like a bunch of blood in there but no sac. So then she went to see if it was ectopic...no signs of that, thank goodness. So she tells me it could just be reallllly early still. She takes us to see the doctor who agrees it might be too early still and I might have O'd later than I thought (even tho I was charting all my fertility signs so that would mean my whole chart is some how wrong) OR I'm miscarrying and there was something wrong chromosomally and it wouldn't have been viable with life so my body is taking care of it.

Tears. Lots of tears.

They sent me to get blood drawn, which I did, and will go back in a few days again to see what my levels are doing. Whether they're doubling, or staying the same or lessening. On the way home I told DH I don't think there's a baby in there...I saw the ultrasound screen and I know what a normal 5-6 week ultrasound should look like b/c I've been looking at google images for days getting excited, and there was no black spot on my ultrasound. No indication of anything. Just a mass of...whatever it was. Then we get home and I go to the bathroom and theres bright red blood...more than just spotting, more than I think is normal. And I'm cramping.

I was so optimistic bees. So new and positive and hopeful. First time out and who would expect anything bad? I took the rest of the day off work and am just sitting at home crying...looking at my lovely BFPs that were darkening beautifully...thinking about how we were going to tell our parents and sisters this weekend and the cute ways we decided to do that...thinking of how I told DH with balloons and how I recorded the whole thing. It just feels...like a loss...which it is, and it hurts.

I'm almost positive my lab results after I go back on Saturday will show proof of a miscarriage. I really don't see how this can not end that way. I'm so sorry for bringing down the board with this. I pray no one else here has to experience this and that you all have happy healthy babies. I guess it's just not our time yet.

I'm going to step away for a while, maybe duck back in to update for sure after my labs come in next Monday or Tuesday. But it's just too hard right now. I feel like I failed my baby and my DH. He's said that's not true and has been so sweet and supportive, but I'll still feel that way for a while I think. Okay, pity party over. I hope eveyone else's appointments and ultrasounds go the exact opposite of mine.

@mrsnoodle I am so so so sorry. It is not your fault! Have hubby show you lots of love this weekend.

@MrsNoodle: I'm so sorry, hun! You definitely did NOT fail your baby, there was nothing you could have done. I've had two early losses and I know how much it hurts. You and your DH should plan a fun trip soon - go somewhere new and enjoy your time together before you hop back on the ttc train. Hugs

@MrsNoodle: I am so so sorry your appointment went that way. Sending you lots of good vibes and hugs. Don't feel like you're bringing down the board, that's what we are here for - to support everyone through all the parts, good and bad.

@MrsNoodle: I'm so very sorry to hear this. You absolutely didn't fail, it's not your fault. And we are here to support you and listen to you no matter what happens. Hugs.

@MrsNoodle: I'm so sorry for your loss

@MrsNoodle: Fingers crossed your labs go up on Sat. Glad the Dr is being proactive for you!

My appt was good ( ugh, I feel bad saying that after your appt ) baby is measuring on target and we saw the heartbeat.

I really feel like I need to go and get a bar fridge and put it right beside my bed. I cannot.stop.eating. I'm so hungry all the time. I wake up every few hours at night just starving! I try to wait until at least 5am before I get up and get some cereal.

@MrsNoodle: Having gone through a miscarriage in February and our struggles now, I know all of the feelings you expressed. It's so hard not to feel like a failure of a woman to not be able to take care of something inside of you. A friend wrote a really nice email when I miscarried that I try to remember: she said, "Pregnancy is the strangest thing – something that is so intimate (is happening inside of us, to us, by us) and yet something that we have so little control over." I try to remember that in my toughest moments. Please be kind to yourself. You deserve it

I also feel bad updating this because of MrsNoodle's news, but our appointment went well yesterday. Baby is growing right on track and we were able to hear the heartbeat, which was so surreal.

@MrsB2012: Glad to hear your appt went well also! I've also started getting hungry all the time. And I want fruit snacks.

I'm so jealous of all the appointments ladies! I haven't even called to make mine yet. How's everyone doing? I have a cold and am feeling rotten! headache, achey, sneezing, cough, sore throat, super stuffy nose! Ugh. I never get sick so I'm totally blaming this on pregnancy!

@cmomma17: I waited to make mine too. I knew when I was supposed to go in so I just didn't rush to call. I also had a bad cold this time. I tested super early (8dpo) because I wanted to take cold medicine. And then there was the faintest of lines so I had to sweat it out sans drugs!

@cmomma17: thanks, I hope so!!

@swedishfish: it happened when I woke up this morning, then nothing all day, then a bit more brown spotting just now. I suppose I'll call the OB on call tomorrow morning... Ugh.

@loopedd: I'm sure your spotting is normal, but I can understand how scary it is. Were you able to talk to the OB on call?

@cmomma17: I think I'm getting sick too! I was actually wheezing yesterday when I was laughing (so weird?), then woke up today feeling so bad - sore throat, runny nose, blah. I wonder if this is related to pregnancy or just a bad coincidence?

Anyone else feeling the fatigue? I've been totally exhausted the last 2 days. Have slept for 9-10 hours each night, and also took a nap yesterday for 1.5 hours. So much for a super productive weekend...