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I am taking a page from Mrs. Blue's play book and made a fresh account to join this thread (since far too many of my friends IRL are on HB and could find out before I am ready to share). I will come out eventually, once I am closer to being ready to share IRL (and once we know the pregnancy is sticky).

EDD:
Jan 22

When did you find out:
Last week - slowly sinking in

How do you feel?:
mostly terrified (of MC), cautiously excited

Child #:
2 - my first is 2 years old

What type of provider will you see?/What type of birth do you want to have?:
Midwife

When is your first appointment?:
June 6

What are you most excited about?:
June 6. Will not rest easy til June 6. Had a missed miscarriage before this, so I am questioning my symptoms and an emotional basket case basically. Beyond that, assuming all goes well, very excited to see my oldest become a big sibling.

What are you scared/nervous about?:
Miscarriage. Oy.

@MOJ: Haha, this is the new m.o. here Glad to have you here mystery bee

@MOJ: Welcome!!

@Pumuckl: @Mrs. Blue: @oliviaoblivia: thanks

@Mrs. Blue: OH, okay. I was like hmm those dates match up well. I didn't know what other name you were posting under. I assumed people were just referring to gold posts I couldn't see.

JANUARY MAMAS!!

Due Dates
January 1st: Oliviaoblivia (#2), namaste (#1)
January 2nd: PMRLADY (#1)
January 5th: MFA_LADY (#1)
January 11th: MrsTiger (#2)
January 11th: ValentineMommy (#2)
January 13th: KeepCalmCarrie (#2)
January 14th: Travelgirl1 (#2)
January 15th: Charmed (#1), CatchAFallingStar (#1), bhbee (#2)
January 16th: Pumuckl (#2), Oliviapope (#1)
January 18th: Mrs. Blue (#3)
January 21st: Gigi2 (#1), Radish (#2)
January 22nd: MOJ (#2)
January 24th: sorrycharlie (#2)
January 26th: NerdBee (#2)
January 30th: Snowdrop (#1)

Next Appointment
May 26th: Travelgirl1
May 27th: MrsTiger, CatchAFallingStar, ValentineMommy
May 28th: namaste
May 29th: MFA_LADY
May 30th: Gigi2
June 3rd: KeepCalmCarrie
June 5th: Charmed
June 6th: MOJ
June 9th: Mrs. Blue
June 11th: Pumuckl
June16th: sorrycharlie
June 19th: Oliviaoblivia
June 24th: Radish
July 1st: sorrycharlie

@sorrycharlie: I noticed before you posted. I copied the wrong one. I didn't want someone to start updating while I was and rushed too much.

@MOJ: Welcome!

@Radish: Haha! No, I don't think I ever specifically said the other user name, but I think they saw the video announcement that I posted and put it together. Thanks for keeping up with the list!

@sorrycharlie: First pregnancy, I was nauseated by 4 weeks, puking my guts up by 5 weeks, was super exhausted all the time, and the ladies were really sore. This pregnancy, I'm almost 6 weeks and I'm generally tired with some chest soreness. I've had a few food aversions or felt like I need to eat a cracker or something, but no major nausea at all. It's hard not to freak out since my experience this time is sooo different, but my mom was just telling me last night that all of her three pregnancies were very different so that made me feel a little better. P.S. that line is DARK!

@sorrycharlie: Haha, I had a pack of 3 FRERs at the beginning of my testing and about 7 or 8 wondfo OPKs....I took the first FRER the day I got my positive, another one three days later, and then took the OPKs for fun. I kept telling myself I wouldn't use the 3rd FRER....but it was killing me in there, just taunting me in the drawer. So, of course I took it, and there was barely a control line because all the dye got stolen for the test line! I must admit--it was awesome.

@Radish: The same thing happened to us! I could have had mine yesterday (!!!!!!!!!!) but my husband had a job interview and wouldn't have been able to make it on time. So, it's next week instead. All day yesterday I kept thinking about it!

I'm finding that the closer I get to my ultrasound, the more scared I get. I think it's because I've never had an ultrasound with a positive outcome, you know? I will be so glad when next Thursday afternoon rolls around!

Also, I'm still having this bizarre acne ONLY on the bridge of my nose. It's the weirdest thing. Anybody else have weirdly placed zits?

I'm also running through our schedule in my head and prepping for some of the times it will be hard coming up to hide this baby business (almost always because I won't be drinking). We have a big party this weekend that our good friends always throw (and she's on baby watch, so it's going to be tough!!), and then the first weekend in June is my BIL's graduation party. MIL is on baby-watch, too. Haha. I'm going to need some help with that one!!

@Radish: Thanks, lady. I feel like it's been ages, but it's so much better than last time! (My practice usually does their first US at the end of the first tri.) Looked at the calendar today and realized I got my BFP four whole weeks ago. Crazy!!

@Mrs. Blue: Thank you so much for your perspective! I'm glad I'm not the only one who is experiencing/has experienced that extreme excitement and fear around the US, all at the same time. It's so weird, you know, how there are opposite emotions competing ALL THE TIME during this pregnancy business.

Like you said, it's hard not to view the US in a different light after you've had anything but a positive experience. I said this yesterday, but I feel like I have ultrasound PTSD...because the only ones I've ever had have been to discover and confirm my missed MC.

My practice actually offered to let me have my ultrasound around 6 weeks, but that is when I lost my last pregnancy...and so I waited two more weeks to schedule so that I can see something different than what I saw last time. I hope that will help at least a little bit with easing my mind...but we will see. Thank you again!

Hi everyone! I've been reading along with this group from the beginning, hopeful I would join, but was going to wait to respond for awhile longer to play it safe. However, I just got back from a workout class (barre--so hard!) where the instructor was encouraging us to kick negative thoughts out of our minds while we were kicking our legs around. I know it sounds cheesy, but I was imagining pushing away all my fears and anxieties about things going wrong with this pregnancy. So I'm going to try to keep away from "stinkin' thinkin,'" as the instructor put it, and embrace that today I'm pregnant! So without that, here's my little intro:

EDD:
FertilityFriend says 1/23.

When did you find out:
May 15th, early in the morning.

How do you feel?:
Good! Sore boobs, but otherwise fine. This worried me so I took another pregnancy test just this morning. I sometimes get a really faint yucky feeling, but I can ignore it. I do need to eat more regularly (something I'm bad about) or else I feel blah.

Child #:
Number 1. It took us awhile to get here.

What type of provider will you see?/What type of birth do you want to have?:
I was seeing a midwife and love that model of care, but she really didn't handle my infertility/endometriosis well at all, so I'm moving on to an OB/GYN.

I hope to go med-free, and the hospital where I'll deliver is supportive of that. But I won't be ashamed to take the drugs if it gets unbearable! I'm a very middle-of-the-road type of gal.

When is your first appointment?:
I've already had two betas. My first ultrasound is June 4.

What are you most excited about?:
Seeing the baby for the first time. I could cry just thinking about it. It will be fun to tell my family. Can't wait to feel the baby move. Turning our little rental into a nice home for the baby. All of it!

What are you scared/nervous about?:
Is this baby going to stick around? And I'm doing what I need to do for it to grow and be strong?

@sorrycharlie: I definitely got symptoms earlier this time around. I had mild nausea at 4 weeks, that is unfortunately only getting worse

@MOJ: yay, welcome!

@Pumuckl: ugh, today is rough. LO is still sick (thankfully past the scary croup, but this cough and congestion just won't quit. DH and I are both sick now as well. My nausea is getting worse - I'm pretty much living off English muffins, apricots, and grapefruit juice these days.

-I always feel guilty for complaining about pregnancy symptoms, because I am super grateful to be pregnant and the only thing that matters is a healthy little bean. I also loved being pregnant the first time - once I got past the first tri, it was wonderful. So for those who are pregnant with #1 a hang in there, it gets so much better!-

@mfa_lady: like @Mrs. Blue:, I haven't had a loss so I can't imagine what that's like We did have a scare with LO#1's anatomy scan (choroid plexus cyst on the brain, which resolved and turned out to be nothing later but which can be a marker for trisomies or other scary stuff). Ever since that scan, I've had a lot of anxiety with ultrasounds. That was another reason I was glad we didn't find out the sex at that appointment. It was a stressful, not fun experience.

@Happygal: Yay! So glad you took the plunge. I am also trying to focus on positive thoughts, but it is hard not to think what if. And now I can't remember if I took my prenatal.

I was silly excited to change my FF app spot to a pregnancy app on my phone.

@mfa_lady: you totally shouldn't beat yourself up about the cokr

I'm still enjoying my morning coffee everyday. I'd get a terrible headache if I quit it and I need it in order to function.

@Happygal: Welcome, welcome! Glad you pushed your fears aside!

@keepcalmcarrie: sorry to hear J is still sick and you're sick too now!

@Mrs. Blue: ha, your description of the fear before the u/s is pretty much what I wanted to say a couple of pages back. I always get sooooo worried that this time will be the time that we'll get the bad news. Totally crazy since I wasn't high-risk or anything...

@Radish: what would you suggest for the list? I'm fine either way

@Happygal: urgh, no one wants to read about what the can't do anything about!
@MOJ: Congrats

@Happygal: Woohoo!! Welcome, & congrats!!

@Pumuckl: I still drink my coffee every morning, too, but I'm always nervous about what will happen because coffee was the one thing that would make me literally projectile vomit for my entire pregnancy last time. I'm soooo hoping that I can keep drinking coffee the whole time this go round.